#864 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7
When I was 14 I went to my bishop to confess to looking at pornography and masturbation. I remember the shame more than anything. My bishop at the time was…
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Legend for Consequences Suffered (CS):
- Inappropriate shame and guilt
- Childhood self-loathing
- Adulthood self-loathing
- Normalizing children to sexual questions by adult men. (Grooming)
- Sexual abuse. (Pedophilia)
- Impaired sexual relations after marriage.
- Years of recovery from childhood shaming. Often lasting decades.
- Suicide Ideation
- Attempted Suicide
- Suicide of a loved one or friend.
#863 Randal C. CS: 1,2,3,4,7. Other: Unworthy
At the age of 9, I was introduced to a powerful man, by the Rev/ Billy Graham. This powerful, loving man was my Lord, Jesus Christ, and it instilled in…
#862 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,9. Other: Belief that it was my fault when I was raped, so I never reported it
Prior to my first interview with the Bishop, I had no idea about sexual things. “Doing it” was something adults did. I was 11. But I wore sun dresses outside…
#861 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7
I was 14 or 15 at the time and I remember my friends suddenly not attending church anymore. It all seemed to happen around the time that we were being…
#860 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8
I was always shamed by The Church like everyone else growing up. I’ve tried writing my story now twice and every time I feel too much pain as I write…
#859 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
The devaluing of My worth. I was a girl around 3 to 5 or so. A tomboy. I loved doing rough and tumble things with the neighborhood boys and I…
#858 Renee M. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7
At the age of 18 I finally told my mom and my bishop that my step father had sexually abused me, the good bishop did what our culture had taught…
#856 Jeffrey J. CS: 1,7
I am a convert to the church. I joined when I was 13 years old along with my family. I grew up in a broken home, the church was a…
#855 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7
This is NOT my story, but it IS the story of what can happen and what DID happen because of the policies of The Church of JESUS CHRIST of Latter-day…
#854 Name Hidden. CS: 1,7,8,9. Other: Drugs and alcohol abuse
My adult daughter came to us 2 years ago to let us know that our Bishop in Bedford New Hampshire head sexually molested her at the age of 17 when…
#853 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,10. Other: Unable to marry or have sexual relations at all
I have had too much shame to share my story with even my closest friends. I have been faithfully active for 40 years. In the past five years I have…
#852 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
Quite apart from the standard questions on masturbation and sexual purity that always made me feel uncomfortable, I had one incident that was the most harrowing. I did some things…
#851 Jasmine N. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
When I was 8 I was shown pornography by my older brother but I kept it hidden. As years went by I felt dirty and worthless especially at church. Then…
#850 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3
I am a woman in my 30s. In college, first in AZ then at BYU, I had urges to masturbate several times a week. It was a nice release, left…
#849 Name Hidden. CS: 1,4,6
It was my sophomore year of high school and one night when my boyfriend and I were making out he put his hand down the front of my pants. It…
#848 Melody P. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,10. Other: Normalizing me to physical control and sexual questions by adult men meant that my child was subjected to these things as well, to both our detriment. 🙁
Dear Sam: Thank you for fighting to protect LDS children. They need all the protectors they can get. It has taken me all week to write this letter; I have…
#847 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7. Other: PTSD
Growing up in the church, I first learned of masturbation from a bishopric member asking if I did it. I was young and being interviewed to go to the temple…
#846 Michelle S. CS: 3,4,5,6,7,8,10. Other: Dissociative Identy Disorder
My story is too long so I’m writing a book. To offer some insight I can tell you that my father was taking religious classes at BYU from 1959 -1967…
#845 Mindy B. CS: 1,3
I am one of the lucky ones that didn’t experience inappropriate questions from my bishop when i was under 18. I’m not so lucky, however, as I experienced systemic abuse…