#251 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4
When I was 8, just after I was baptized, I would look up pictures on the internet. I started finding “dirty” ones and found myself always wanting to look at…
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Legend for Consequences Suffered (CS):
- Inappropriate shame and guilt
- Childhood self-loathing
- Adulthood self-loathing
- Normalizing children to sexual questions by adult men. (Grooming)
- Sexual abuse. (Pedophilia)
- Impaired sexual relations after marriage.
- Years of recovery from childhood shaming. Often lasting decades.
- Suicide Ideation
- Attempted Suicide
- Suicide of a loved one or friend.
#252 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8
I was molested by my older brothers for several years. One night my mother sat me down and asked me about it because my parents had caught one of my…
#253 Name Hidden. CS: 1,4
When my son was almost 12, I went to speak with the bishop about the upcoming interview for my son. I asked what he would ask my son. He said…
#254 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,8,9
My parents are amazing people. They are always there for me (turning 30 this year) and have never judged or meant to harm me or my brothers in any way…
#255 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7
I struggled with bishops interviews all growing up. The questions always made me feel uncomfortable, I hated being alone in a room with an adult male that I didn’t know…
#256 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7
I was born in what many would view the ideal Mormon family. My parents believed in doing all that the church taught and I was raised with a view on…
#257 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,4,6,7
When I was 17, I fell in love for the first time. This boy looked at me in a way that no one else ever had before. It was like…
#258 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3
When I was about 16 I had to delay my ordination to Priest because I confessed to porn and masturbation. Because of the delay, I had to tell my dad,…
#259 Ron B. CS: 1,2
My son when he was 13 went in to see his bishop for the yearly interview. This was in the Kaysville Height Bench ward. He came home all upset, and…
#260 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2. Other: Regular questions about masturbation led me to habitual lying.
I asked my children’s bishop not to ask them any questions related to sexuality. He refused my request, claiming that he had a responsibility as a bishop to address issues…
#261 James H. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
I could say so much but I’ll keep it simple. I was indoctrinated into Mormonism as a child, I believed it because it was the only perception of reality offers…
#262 Name Hidden. CS: 1
I had a boyfriend as a teenager that I “fooled around” with. I was told that in order to repent I would need to confess to my Bishop. My Bishop…
#263 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9
I’m one of the lucky ones who had only good men as bishops throughout my life and yet I still did not escape unscathed. I discovered masturbation by about age…
#264 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9
I didn’t know what masturbation was at 11 when I went in for my “are you ready for the priesthood?” interview with the bishop. Little did I know when I…
#265 Jeanne A. CS: 1,2,3,4,6
I was a 17 year old good girl. Dating at Ricks college with a football player with 16 roaming hands. After months of dating and fighting him off I finally…
#266 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,6,7,8,9
I am in the process of writing my story about the sexual issues and shaming that happened within the church. It’s really hard to do. I’ve been in therapy for…
#267 Name Withheld CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
When I was a child, I considered suicide as an alternative route to admitting to a bishop a “sexual sin” I had committed a few years prior. I remember the…
#268 Duncan S. CS: 1,2,7,8. Other: Perpetuated addiction.
I’ve always been interested in love. My whole life has been spent loving love, and naturally that love, as a child, was placed in God. As I grew older, I…
#269 Lauren S. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7. Other: Silenced about sexual abuse. Blamed for my own sexual abuse.
I was 11 when a cousin 4 years older than me began sexually abusing me. It went on every summer for 3 years, worsening each year as he viewed stronger…
#270 Amanda W. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
I was in my teens when I started masturbating. My bishop at the time was very much interested in emphasizing how sinful masturbation was. He regularly visited my Young Women’s…