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Legend for Consequences Suffered (CS):

Inappropriate shame and guilt
Childhood self-loathing
Adulthood self-loathing
Normalizing children to sexual questions by adult men. (Grooming)
Sexual abuse. (Pedophilia)
Impaired sexual relations after marriage.
Years of recovery from childhood shaming. Often lasting decades.
Suicide Ideation
Attempted Suicide
Suicide of a loved one or friend.

#492 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8. Other: impaired sexuality even still 15 years later/unable to feel confident and free of shame for my body and it’s normal healthy functions; I based my entire adult and sex life on how others might view me, instead of what I want and need for myself in that private & personal part of my life–which is NO ONE ELSE’S BUSINESS!!

I was born into the LDS church, raised and lived my whole life in the heart of LDS country, Utah County. There’s no escaping the influence of LDS church because…

#493 Amanda M. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

When I was 14 I reported my rape to my bishop. Except since I was 14 I didn’t know it was rape. I wasn’t even really sure what happened. My…

#494 Brittany D. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8.

To begin, I will say that I was three when a man first took away my sexual agency. My father, a pedophile, showed me porn that included Rape, origies, and…

#495 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8

Many years ago during a family trip to San Francisco where we walked across the Golden Gate Bridge, 11-year-old me stopped and peered down into the still, gently swirling water…

#496 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

My story has roots going back stemming from before I was born but I don’t think it is my place to tell them right now. My personal story mostly begins…

#497 Name Hidden. CS: n/a

This makes me so grateful for my Bishop after reading these stories. I’ve always sat in on my son’s interviews with the bishop because my son is shy and feels…

#498 Name Hidden. 1,2,3,4,6,7,8. Other: Fear/High anxiety of Leadership interviews, and Church attendance, job interviews, Therapy, Psychiatry appointments, and Doctor’s appointments alone.

The earliest I have a memory of abuse was at the age of 6. At age 7, I remember preparing for baptism, I was excited, I…

#499 Trevor C. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

Protect LDS Children: My Story, Trevor Cobb, March 25, 2018 Around 1992-1993, when I was a deacon in Olney, Maryland, my mom caught me looking at a Playboy in the…

#500 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7. Other: fear of damnation

It was my first temple trip as a new Beehive. Back then before the Albuquerque temple was built, the nearest temple to my small town in New Mexico was Dallas,…

#501 Jenny F. CS: 1,2,7

When I was 16 years old, I met with my bishop to confess some sexual sins I had committed with my boyfriend. I felt horrible and wanted to start on…

#502 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,5,7,8

To tell my story I have to include some back story. When I was a child, probably 4th grade I was sexually assaulted. This is something I am still coming…

#503 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7. Other: Distrust of Leaders

I didn’t know what masturbation was until I was a teenager, but found out that I had been doing it since I was six on an off again. At young…

#504 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

When I was twelve years old a male leader came to our Sunday School class. One by one, he took each child out of class to have a talk with…

#505 Name Hidden. CS: 1,4. Other: Poor trust, lack of confidence

I thought I just couldn’t remember things clearly. I questioned myself. I thought I had heard the questions wrong. But I didn’t Sixteen and alone with a man of authority,…

#506 Matthew B. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8. Other: Depression and impairment in social and professional environments.

I masturbated only once (yes, ONCE) as a young man growing up in the Church. I was 14 years old. I didn’t really understand what I was doing or feeling,…

#507 Name Withheld. CS: 5

As a teenager, one Bishop always had me sit on his lap after the door was closed. I didn’t question it because I was naive and had been taught to…

#508 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

I first discovered masturbation around 6 years old. I had no idea there was anything wrong with it and I simply called it “getting butterflies”. I remember at 8 being…

#509 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10. Other: Foundational damage to my testimony of the truthfulness of the Gospel and the LDS Church.

I was sexually abused by family members (aunts and cousins) and babysitters from my earliest memory (as a toddler). One such abusive event actually resulted in my drowning death but…

#510 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,7,8

I am an active member of the church. When I served my mission, a man broke into me and my companions apartment. He held a knife up to my neck…

#511 Name Hidden. CS: 1,4,6

When I was 13, my family was not active in the church. Our bishop did, however, reach out to my parents encouraging an interview since I was at a “vulnerable…

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