#170 Name hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8
I’m a Mormon male who grew up in a small Mormon town in Idaho. The first time I confessed was when I was 13. After a Deacon’s Quorum lesson about…
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Legend for Consequences Suffered (CS):
- Inappropriate shame and guilt
- Childhood self-loathing
- Adulthood self-loathing
- Normalizing children to sexual questions by adult men. (Grooming)
- Sexual abuse. (Pedophilia)
- Impaired sexual relations after marriage.
- Years of recovery from childhood shaming. Often lasting decades.
- Suicide Ideation
- Attempted Suicide
- Suicide of a loved one or friend.
#171 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,6,7,8
I was a new Convert and I had just turned 18. In my home ward all of the Moms had it planned out which boys from the Ward their Daughter’s…
#172 Tyler R. CS: 1,2,4,7
In short, i was 9-11 years old and my parents found out me and my friends had found pornography. They took me to meet with the bishop, a close family…
#173 Mandi B. CS: 1,2,3,8
My son went in for his interview with the bishop in order to obtain the office of a teacher. He was asked if he kept the law of chastiy, he…
#174 Tanner T. CS: 1,2,4,8,9
I was asked by my bishop, since age twelve, if I masturbated, looked at porn, or broke the law of chastity in any other manner. At twelve, I didn’t even…
#175 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4
I lost interest in the church when I was a freshman in high school and began hanging out with the wrong crowd. I ended up drinking and smoking marijuana with…
#176 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7
As a teen, I remember being asked if I masturbated in bishop interviews and these questions continued through the mission, my years at BYU, and singles wards after. I became…
#177 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,6
When I was seventeen years old, and dating my boyfriend, later to be my husband, I knew that I wanted to be married in the temple. I had been taught…
#178 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8. Other: Seemingly irreversible damage to sexual identity
Growing up, I was not talked to about my sexuality in what I would consider a healthy way. I don’t fully blame my parents, because I was not an easy…
#179 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3
I attended the Provo MTC in July of 2007. I had a past that others in my life were unaware of and I was under the false assumption that I…
#180 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,8
When I was about 15 years old, the Bishop of my Ward questioned me about generic immoral activity. When I said “no” to being engaged in such activity, he paused…
#181 Name Withheld. CS: Punished as a rape victim
I’ll keep this short because I’m happy to have put the LDS church in my past. When I was 16 years old I was raped and impregnated by a 20…
#182 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6. Other: Desire to self-mutilate
I began masturabting when I was six years old and somehow already knew that I was “filthy” and “unloved by God”. I didn’t know it was called masturabtion until I…
#183 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8
When I was 16, I was dating my first real boyfriend. We would make out often and each time got more intense. When we began touching under our clothing my…
#184 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,6. Other: Fear of sex, gynecological exams, etc
I remember having to decide whether to confess to masturbation at my baptismal interview a few months shy of my eighth birthday. I decided to confess, since it was what…
#185 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,6,7,8
I didn’t realize what masturbation was until I was 13 and went to church. It began at the stake center, when I attended the audio portion of a general conference…
#186 Alissa P. CS: Cover up sexual abuse
Told of sexual abuse in my home multiple times from 8 to 16. I was never taken out of the home. Case was sent to LDS family services where we…
#187 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,8
I was 14 when I was raped by a young man in my ward. I kept it to myself, shamed and fearful of telling anyone, because this young man was…
#188 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,5,7,8,9
Bishop’s interviews made me feel like my sexuality belonged to everybody but me. I lost my right to secrecy, and that has had dire consequences. From those interviews, I became…
#189 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9
I began dating my husband when I was sixteen and he seventeen. I lost my virginity after we had been dating about a year. I felt an immense amount of…