#210 Landon H. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10
Sam, July 2nd of 2017 was the first day I had been sober in over a decade. Between drugs and alcohol I had a heavy regiment of self-medication. There was…
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Legend for Consequences Suffered (CS):
- Inappropriate shame and guilt
- Childhood self-loathing
- Adulthood self-loathing
- Normalizing children to sexual questions by adult men. (Grooming)
- Sexual abuse. (Pedophilia)
- Impaired sexual relations after marriage.
- Years of recovery from childhood shaming. Often lasting decades.
- Suicide Ideation
- Attempted Suicide
- Suicide of a loved one or friend.
#211 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,8
My bishop was hardcore on the masturbation interviews. They started at 10 because he wanted to be sure that he could “identify worthiness issues” before we became deacons. In my…
#213 Name Hidden. CS: 1,4,7
My boyfriend and I had sex at the age of 17 for the first time after being together for almost a year. Before that I had never so much as…
#214 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,4,7,8
I was born in Salt Lake City, raised LDS. I’m 34 now. I have been atheist for almost a decade. Around 14 I experimented with another boy. I had my…
#215 Curtis C. CS: 1,2,7,8
Bishop and church GA’s shaming over masturbation caused me such self loathing over my inability to remain “pure” that I suffered from deep depression and frequent contemplation of suicide for…
#216 Lindsay S. CS: 1,3,6,8
I was a young woman in college when a young, LDS man forcibly groped me, kissed me and exposed himself to me. Afterwards I didn’t process that it wasn’t my…
#217 D. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8
The mission and stories of this website have validated my pain and my experience. This validation has brought about so much healing in my heart. This validation has empowered me…
#218 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8
I hesitated to write my story because I wasn’t sexually abused. I decided to write it though, because my experience around these interviews has been a big contributor to my…
#219 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,5,6,7,8,9
Ugh, this is hard. I’m not really used to telling my story. But if I can help one child… I was born into an extremely devout Mormon family. Extremely devout.…
#220 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7
My story I remember being really nervous at bishops interviews as a youth because the prevailing belief was that bishops could ask ANY question they wanted because they were Gods’…
#221 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8
I grew up very active in the church and quite believing. I tried to do everything right. To the outside I was a model member, seemingly obeying the commandments, being…
#222 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,4,8
At twenty, I was depressed and hadn’t taken the sacrament since moving out of my dad and stepmom’s house 2 years earlier. I was sexually abused by my stepdad when…
#223 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8
I want to start by saying I am an active member of the church. I debated about sharing this, because all of the people involved with one exception are good…
#224 Robin D. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
This practice destroyed my self-esteem, caused me to experience nearly relentless anxiety from age 8 on and led me to take desperate actions to “fix” myself of normal adolescent behavior…
#225 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7
When I was in high school, I had a serious boyfriend. After about a year of dating, we mutually decided to have sex. Many months passed and my bf felt…
#226 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7
I was fifteen lost my virginity to my boyfriend. I felt terrible about attempted baptism for the dead when others work so hard for a temple recommend so I confessed…
#227 Alan H. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8
One of my first interviews that I can remember happened when I was 12. I felt fine about meeting the bishop. He asked me if I obeyed the law of…
#228 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,4,7. Other: Sexual self indentity..
I hesitate to relate this history, to talk explicitly about matters of a sexual nature, but am compelled to do so because church leaders did not hesitate to invade my…
#229 Sara F. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9
When I was 17 I slipped with my older boyfriend. I told my parents what had happened and they told me it was bad enough I needed to confess to…
#230 Heather S. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8. Other: Belief that sex is evil & next only to murder and that if sexual touch felt good in any way, that meant I was evil.
Trigger Warning: child sex abuse. This is about church teachings being used by my abuser. I grew up in a small Mormon town and was an innocent and naive child.…