#593 Heidi P/B CS: 1,2,3,6,7
When I was younger, I was LDS and my main goal in life was to be married in the temple. Around the age of 14, I can remember wanting to…
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Legend for Consequences Suffered (CS):
- Inappropriate shame and guilt
- Childhood self-loathing
- Adulthood self-loathing
- Normalizing children to sexual questions by adult men. (Grooming)
- Sexual abuse. (Pedophilia)
- Impaired sexual relations after marriage.
- Years of recovery from childhood shaming. Often lasting decades.
- Suicide Ideation
- Attempted Suicide
- Suicide of a loved one or friend.
#594 Aubrey T. CS: 1,2,4,7
It all started in the summer of 2009.. Worthiness interviews for baptisms for the dead. This was the first time he called me in, I was just recently sexually active…
#595 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8
My story is not one of overt sexual abuse by my priesthood leaders, but I feel it represents the sometimes subtle but deep shaming and overall damage that is done…
#596 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4. Other: Considered extreme self harm
I am sharing my husband’s story that he only recently dared share with me after 29 years of marriage. He finally decided to share it after learning about all of…
#597 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,5,6,7,8,9. Other: The double ache was as hard as I tried to protect.
As a young child: Setting, Salt Lake City, close to I have NO happy memories of my mother. My first memory of her is being probably two, and calling out,…
#598 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8
I masturbated and was loving it before I knew what it was. It’s the way God created me, after all. I found out what it was and that the church…
#599 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8. Other: C-PTSD, Manic Depression, Anorexia
From them telling us our bodies, the very thing that gives us life…is a sin. From telling us we are responsible for other people abusing us. We are children that…
#600 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9
I have been a member for just over 23 years. I have never shared this story with anyone besides my counselor. I have always feared backlash from family or friends…
#601 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,7,8
When I was around 12 years old I was introduced to masturbation by a friend. At first I didn’t know it was wrong in the church’s eyes and continued to…
#602 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,9
I had just turned 16 years old. Raised in the church I was very sheltered and my mother never talked to me about sex. There was a 19 year old…
#603 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8. Other: Self-mutilation ideation. The shame and guilt were so overwhelmingly, I wanted my genitalia removed so that I would never masturbate again.
Dread, shame and guilt at every annual worthiness interview from my teenage years beginning in the early 1980s into adulthood for masturbation. The interview didn’t even need to be particularly…
#604 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,6
Wow, where do I start? In 1985 when I was 22, I was raped and assaulted with a knife and almost killed in my apartment, by a stranger. I escaped…
#605 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8
For years I was asked sexually explicit questions by grown men who held positions of power and authority over me. I was raised that way. I thought it was normal.…
#606 Name Hidden. CS: 1,6. Other: Spouse lost testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ, and marriage was destroyed
I was an active divorced LDS member, in love with a man who had converted, been baptised and had his temple recommend in hand when he proposed marriage for all…
#607 Name Hidden. CS: 1,6,7
I remember meeting with my bishop at 14. He had me describe the sexual acts I’d shared with my boyfriend. I didn’t even have the words for some of the…
#608 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,4,7
My family and I joined the church when I was 12. I had to have an interview with the bishop for a temple recommend to get sealed with my parents.…
#609 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8
I am so scared to tell my story because of the backlash I could receive from family members who may read this so I have decided to share it to…
#610 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9
I was sixteen and excited to date. I dated a boy who wanted to get physically close, but I said no. He raped me repeatedly the day before we went…
#611 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,8
When I was in preschool, several kids and I used to play a game called “show me your bare bumb”. It was a secret game we played with each other…
#612 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7
I was a 15-year-old cheerleader when I was called into the bishop’s office for making out with my boyfriend. The bishop, a 50-something real estate agent, asked me to go…