When I was 8 I was shown pornography by my older brother but I kept it hidden. As years went by I felt dirty and worthless especially at church. Then when I was 13 I had sex for the first time and talked to adult men online and my mom found out. I was forced to go to interviews with the bishop who asked me if I masturbated or watched porn. I remember asking if my mom could be with me but I was told no. Then the question I remember the most was when he asked if I liked it and if I was planning on doing it again to which I said no. This caused me to hate myself and feel worthless and so I left at 16 and noticed my self esteem skyrocket as soon as I left but it’s still a work in progress even three years later.