#1026 Hannah. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9

I’ve been mormon all my life. I was a strong extremely Molly Mormon in a very Mormon family. Until I went and broke the rules by getting a boyfriend at age 15. We dated for a year and a half, things escalated and when they first started to I felt horrible. I went into the…

#1024 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

When I was twelve I began meeting with my bishop to seek forgiveness for masturbating. The guilt and shame I felt daily was crippling and I just wanted it to go away. As a young girl in the church, I was constantly reminded that my temptations were completely unnatural and that only men were supposed…

#1021 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9. Other: Victim blaming

I have a few stories so I’ll keep them brief. A bit of background, I’m a 21 year old woman from a multi generational Mormon family on my mom’s side and second generation on my dad’s side. I’ve watched the church erode our family and extended family. I left when I was 19 and have…

#1018 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8. Other: Ideas of self-mutilation

I first stated masturbation at a young age. It was a secret I kept. I felt awkward about it when other boys talked about it as they learned about sex from their parents and I did not. I didn’t think much of it until I remember seeing a video with my Mormon peers which claimed…

#1016 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,5,7,8

Approximately 11 years ago I was busy with work and school as well as dealing mentally with the loss of my mom to suicide a few years prior. I let my bishop know that I needed a blessing. I told him I was taking Benadryl to sleep a lot through a depression. The bishop at…

#1014 Jennifer L. CS: 1,2,4,5,7

I am sharing my story in hopes that it helps others to know they are not alone in their feelings, in their experiences and in their trauma, but also to raise awareness to the reality of the unhealthy culture and environment of the church for our children. I would love to see change for future…

#1012 Tori L. CS: 1,2,3,5,6,7,8. Other: Severe alcoholism

This story belongs to my mother. In 1970, in Salem, Utah, C.G. was a naive and innocent 11 year old, happy and willing to babysit the children of her Sunday school teacher. She endured multiple episodes of fondling, kissing, and hypersexualized discussion, on her teacher’s living room floor. THEN, the wife of this vile human…

1010 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,7,8.

Even though I was a fatherless Mormon Boy, my Mormon childhood was great all the way up until the dreadful day my testes started to produce semen and that is when my LDS nightmare began. It would happen naturally and I could not stop it from becoming erect. The Church had assigned a convert man…

1008 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8

Masturbation. Just before turning 12, I was called in for an interview with the Bishop prior to becoming a deacon. One of his questions was if I have a problem with masturbation. I didn’t know what the word meant. I said, no. Puberty hit me at age 14 and from 14-18 “self-abuse” became a frequent…