#1084 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7. Other: This leads to very abnormal interactions with people later in life. A mind filled with harmful doctrine that haunts me daily.

Utah has one of the highest youth suicide rates in the country. It is getting worse. When I was raised in the Mormon church, every week every bishop that I had, talked about Masturbation. When I hear the word Mormon the very first thought that I think about is masturbation.  The second thought is masturbation.…

#1082 Name Withheld CS: 1,2,3,7,8

I was 5 years old when I discovered masturbation. I guess I could blame it on my babysitter using shampoo in my bubble bath which lead to a bad yeast infection. But my parents had no idea about it for years until right before my 8th birthday. My dad was my Branch President at the…

#1081 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7

I was born into the LDS church. I attended faithfully with my family. Went to nursery, primary, and young women’s every Sunday except for the few Sundays we were out of town on vacation. Church was a major part in my life. I believed in its doctrine because it had been ingrained in me since…

#1080 Name Hidden CS: 1,2,3,7,8

Written 11 November 2017 So much anger, So much shame, Looking for someone Someone to blame. I thought for years. I thought it was me. That I was the wrong one. The bad one was me. Carrying the guilt. Carrying all the shame. That who I was Was bad. Was wrong. I was to blame.…

#1079 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

“Do you masturbate?” It was the first time I had heard the word, and it sounded like something bad, so I quickly said no. I was 14 years old, and He was the bishop. As a 14 year old I was dating a young man in the same ward. During the same set of interviews,…

#1075 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,5,7,8. Other: Thoughts of self harm

I grew up in an LDS family in rural Idaho. I was baptized when I was eight as is the LDS standard. I would say I was fairly sheltered in my upbringing, and I mean this in the worst way possible. I was not really told what I was signing up for when they asked…

#1074 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,5,7,8,9. Other: Substance Abuse, stuck in abusive relationship cycle for years, diagnosed PTSD

I first learned about the LDS church the school year after I was raped at 14 years old. It was a case of coercion, I was told he cared about me and he wouldn’t stop pressuring me until I realized there was nothing I could say to make him stop, I had already said no…

1072 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

I am a former Mormon man in my late 40’s. This is my story about Mormon leadership interview abuse. I was taking a bath when I was very young. I can’t be certain of my age, but I think I was six. I remember I was cleaning my genitals with soap when my Father walked…

#1071 Ross M. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9

There were many wonderful things about growing up among the devout. Family is valued highly and I enjoyed the privileges of a very stable home life and close relationships with not only my parents and brothers but with my many aunts, uncles, and cousins. There was the comfort of knowing that if I did everything…

#1069 Melissa W. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,9,10

I was first groomed and raped at age 9 yrs old by my sister’s Sunday School teacher. My family were devout Mormons, and my parents were in marital turmoil with 4 small children. I did not “report” until I was in a facility at age 19 for attempted suicide. My parents then attempted to search…