#623 Name Withheld. CS 1,2,3,4,7,8

I began masturbating without knowing what it was. When I realized I felt afraid and guilty, feeling I’d done the worst thing save murder. A few months later, at age 13, I told my bishop. He asked me to describe how I had been doing it, how often, and for how long. He also told…

#622 Katharine M. CS: 1,3,4,5,7,8,9

I. I was born into an LDS family. Throughout my childhood and youth, my father served in major positions of leadership, respect and trust, including bishop, stake high councilman, branch president and Gospel Doctrine teacher. Throughout my childhood and youth, my mother served in major positions of leadership, respect and trust, including Relief Society president,…

#621 Jessalynn S. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9

The other day, I found myself reading through the journal entries I’d written both before and after I was formally disfellowshipped from the Church. I was disfellowshipped when I was 14 years old. Like many Mormon girls my age growing up on the Wasatch front, the LDS church was my whole life. My family went…

#618 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,10

There’s nothing quite like trying to be the best child of God you can be – praying fervently, loving scripture study, always lending a hand to fellow brothers and sisters in need – and being told behind a closed door with your bishop that masturbation will damn you and keep you separated from God. Nothing…

#616 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

I was 13 years old when a boy told me that his bishop had told him to “not associate with someone like me” . My neighbor who was my age and my first crush told his bishop that we had French kissed and “engaged in petting”. The bishop told him to inform me that it…

#613 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9

First off, thank you…thank you! Years of shame, guilt, self loathing and gender confusion because of what I endured. When it first began….I was called into the bishop’s office out of their concern I was “dangerous ” for other children to be around because I had just come out to my parents as being sexually…

#612 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

I was a 15-year-old cheerleader when I was called into the bishop’s office for making out with my boyfriend. The bishop, a 50-something real estate agent, asked me to go over every point of the encounter in fine detail more than once. What I was wearing, where/how my boyfriend touched me, how it felt, if…

#610 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9

I was sixteen and excited to date. I dated a boy who wanted to get physically close, but I said no. He raped me repeatedly the day before we went to homecoming. I told my bishop who in turn asked if I liked any of it. He asked what I did to egg him on.…

#609 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

I am so scared to tell my story because of the backlash I could receive from family members who may read this so I have decided to share it to the public anonymously. When I was just 9 years old, my Mom caught me “exploring” myself. I can’t even call it what it is because…