#853 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,10. Other: Unable to marry or have sexual relations at all

I have had too much shame to share my story with even my closest friends. I have been faithfully active for 40 years. In the past five years I have been on a break due to this very subject. I am bold and sassy and able to have a voice in every other area of…

#852 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

Quite apart from the standard questions on masturbation and sexual purity that always made me feel uncomfortable, I had one incident that was the most harrowing. I did some things on two occasions as a teenager, which of course are no one’s business. When it came time for my interview to go on a mission,…

#851 Jasmine N. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

When I was 8 I was shown pornography by my older brother but I kept it hidden. As years went by I felt dirty and worthless especially at church. Then when I was 13 I had sex for the first time and talked to adult men online and my mom found out. I was forced…

#847 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7. Other: PTSD

Growing up in the church, I first learned of masturbation from a bishopric member asking if I did it. I was young and being interviewed to go to the temple to do baptisms. I said “no,” as it sounded horrible, and then went home to look up the definition in the dictionary. (Thank goodness I…

#846 Michelle S. CS: 3,4,5,6,7,8,10. Other: Dissociative Identy Disorder

My story is too long so I’m writing a book. To offer some insight I can tell you that my father was taking religious classes at BYU from 1959 -1967 and during that time he was taught secret doctrine that fed his narcissism and he began sexually abusing me when I was three. He would…

#844 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7. Other: My children suffered these things. While I am not concerned about my name being known, I am concerned for my boys and their privacy.

My boys went to our bishop in Henderson, NV in 1999 and told him that their older stepbrother (my husband’s son) was raping them, sexually abusing them and forcing them to perform sex acts on him. They were 9 and 12 years old at the time. The bishop related to my children as if they…

#839 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7. Other: Left the church because of my experiences

When I was about 13, a new bishop was called to my ward. From my very first encounter with him, he made me dread going to church. To everyone else he was a happy, jovial, fun-loving goofy guy, but to me (and from what I remember, other young women – my friends and classmates) he…

#838 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8

I was born and raised in the church and had both fantastic Bishops and then Bishops and other leaders that made my skin crawl. I was asked if I masturbated during Bishopric’s interviews and although I had I ALWAYS lied. The guilt from being “sinful” enough to masturbate was bad enough but when you add…