#1027 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,6

I was sexually assaulted and raped in a church bathroom by a friend. I told my bishop right away in his office. He recorded it, I believe. I was given a book on forgiveness, made to not take sacrament for a month to forgive him for what he did to me. My guardians were never…

#1026 Hannah. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9

I’ve been mormon all my life. I was a strong extremely Molly Mormon in a very Mormon family. Until I went and broke the rules by getting a boyfriend at age 15. We dated for a year and a half, things escalated and when they first started to I felt horrible. I went into the…

#1024 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

When I was twelve I began meeting with my bishop to seek forgiveness for masturbating. The guilt and shame I felt daily was crippling and I just wanted it to go away. As a young girl in the church, I was constantly reminded that my temptations were completely unnatural and that only men were supposed…

#1023 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3. Other: Worse Behaviors ,Still not over it

When I was 12 years old, I had sexual feelings from touching my vagina. I told my LDS Bishop about these feelings and he threatened to Excommunicate me from the Church if I didn’t stop. He and his wife were good friends of my parents. His attitudes only made me continue the behavior and to…

#1021 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9. Other: Victim blaming

I have a few stories so I’ll keep them brief. A bit of background, I’m a 21 year old woman from a multi generational Mormon family on my mom’s side and second generation on my dad’s side. I’ve watched the church erode our family and extended family. I left when I was 19 and have…

#1018 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8. Other: Ideas of self-mutilation

I first stated masturbation at a young age. It was a secret I kept. I felt awkward about it when other boys talked about it as they learned about sex from their parents and I did not. I didn’t think much of it until I remember seeing a video with my Mormon peers which claimed…

#1012 Tori L. CS: 1,2,3,5,6,7,8. Other: Severe alcoholism

This story belongs to my mother. In 1970, in Salem, Utah, C.G. was a naive and innocent 11 year old, happy and willing to babysit the children of her Sunday school teacher. She endured multiple episodes of fondling, kissing, and hypersexualized discussion, on her teacher’s living room floor. THEN, the wife of this vile human…