#434 Name Withheld CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9

My name is Julie. At the time of this writing I am 34 years old. I was born and raised in Utah within the Mormon church. I come from a multi-generational family with deep roots in Mormonism. Most of my family joined at the very beginnings of the church under Joseph Smith or Brigham Young.…

#432 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,5,6,7,8,9. Other: General inability to function constructively in interpersonal relationships

Dear Mr. Young, March 22, 2018 I only recently discovered your work yesterday—your website, and stories of LDS children abused by ecclesiastical interviews. I glanced briefly at the headers for some of the stories on your web site, and knew I had to submit a story. I apologize for the length of the narrative, but…

#431 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,8,9

I am a very active member of the LDS church. I served as a young women’s leader. During the time I served, a couple of the young women I had stewardship over, had messed up but went into Bishop ______ to clear up their mistakes. These beautiful young women went in willingly and sought forgiveness.…

#428 Erin W. CS: 1,2,3,5,7,8

My father physically/sexually abused, neglected, and abandoned his children, with no remorse. When this was brought to the attention of multiple bishops and stake presidents, his vehement denial was all they needed to brush us off. He continued to go to the temple with his recommend and hold callings in his ward… now he is…

#425 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,6,7

I haven’t really discussed this with anyone before.  However, I have been following your movement and it has sparked memories of being ask questions about masturbation during bishop interviews in the 80’s and 90’s. I was very ashamed to have to confess to having sexual feelings and to have acted on them in private. My…

#424 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8

I went to my bishop as a teenager for help navigating trauma from childhood physical, emotional, and sexual abuse. He connected me to some resources and was an empathetic and curious listener– too curious, sometimes. We met a couple times a month for about year. He was always physically affectionate with me giving full body…

#422 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9. Other: Self-harm

This is very difficult so I’ll make it short. I was damaged quite badly by the shame I felt for so called sins and transgressions. I feel like I was conditioned to talk about things of a sexual nature to older men which I feel made it easier for a predator to sink his teeth…

#421 Kylie S. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,8

I was fortunate to have the leaders that I did, they always treated me with respect. However, I did suffer from self-loathing and unnecessary shame due to the culture of normal sexual exploration being seen as a sin second to murder. I hated myself for years even though I was a pretty “pure” teenager, and…

#420 Michael S. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7, Other: Disbelief in the “church”

I was a young adult during the time in which the internet and online porn were becoming popular. It seemed that every Sunday or General Conference was filled with endless warning of porn. I was probably an “expert” on porn before I had even had a chance to know what it really was. Before I…