#578 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9

When I was 15 and in my sophomore year of high school, I had a nonmormon best friend who happened to be a boy (which was a sort of “scandalous” thing in my ward). It was a normal bestfriendship and we spent a lot of time together during school and after school. I was already…

#576 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

When I was 12 I had my first temple worthiness interview. The bishop asked me if I followed the law of chastity. He said, do you know what that is? I told him no. he said, “it means have you touched yourself or let other people touch you?” I could tell the correct answer to…

#573 Name Hidden. 1,2,3,8. Other: Loss of self confidence and self worth, especially with the opposite sex. Difficulty having a normal life. Difficulty having a normal dating life.

I was born into the church. Growing up, I always considered myself a normal kid but felt that the only thing in my life that was not normal was the church. I never did drugs or any illegal activity, like drink alcohol and get behind the wheel of a car while under the influence. I…

#572 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8,9

I can’t remember certain aspects of my early childhood. This is important, because my biological father allegedly molested or abused my sister and I. We were only 2 or 3 years of age. Whatever was going on then made my mother bolt, almost literally. I have family members who share quite a bit more with…

#570 Isaiah B. CS: 1,2,3,4,8,9

I was raised a Mormon.  My mother was born in Utah.  I had very strict grandmother and I felt pressured to speak about my masturbation habits and my porn watching.  It lead me to lose my sarcament privileges which made me feel isolated from the other boys in my ward.  The bishop was tough and…

#568 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8. Other: Anxiety, depression, ptsd symptoms

I felt like my mind and my body were never my own. I was property of the church. My mind, body, identity, worthiness, and authority were taken from me through coercion, threats, extreme social pressure, and ritualistic abuse. It’s been so damaging to me. I’m still trying to piece myself back together. It’s heartbreaking to…

#567 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

I feel hurt and betrayed. I gave my heart and soul to this church and the lack of boundaries and policies and teachings around immorality/chastity/modesty/worthiness interviews of this institution have caused me so much psychological, emotional, and mental pain and suffering. There were no boundaries. It was confusing. It was scary. It was horrible. It…

#566 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

Growing up in the LDS church I was always compared to my older sister, she was the perfect mormon girl and I was just me, so because of that I had a lot of meetings with my bishops growing up. Many of these meetings are hazy to me now (even though they were not that…

#564 Tara T. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10. Other: Ritualistic Abuse and Mind Control

I am a Therapist-Survivor of ritualistic abuse and mind control, that involved at least two of my bishops as perpetrators, and two of my stake presidents. The document below is a document I wrote with the help and edits of a psychologist friend who has advocated and supported survivors for almost 4 decades. While my…