I was born transgender. I had male parts so that was put on my birth certificate. But I was really female though.
In the 2nd grade, I went into the closet to hide from the pain that teachers and students gave me. Baptism came and went. I then went through early male puberty. I hated myself and all the changes. They were all the wrong ones. I truly thought I would get better when puberty hit and I would be fixed.
Then years later I turned 12! During the Deacon worthiness interview I was asked about masturbation. It was explained to me in detail. I was horrified! Not only did I feel wrong as a girl inside but I did not understand why the bishop thought I was a liar. He told me all boys do it. He did not touch me but I did feel violated.
Here is the part that I have never told anyone. That I tried it, thinking that if all boys did it I would be fixed. It did not work and the addiction started because maybe I am not trying hard enough to be male and all boys do it.
A week later on a Sunday, I am supposed to pass the sacrament. I am terrified that I will be literally struck down by lightning from God for being a girl doing a boys Holy ordinance. I am also scared that I will go straight to Hell for abusing myself. I mostly got out of doing the sacrament after that. The masturbation issue and self loathing went on for decades. The bishop did not know about me being transgender. In fact, there were other words for it then. But I do believe my story may have been better without the evil interview I went through.