#895 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,9. Other: Unworthy bishop, Parental abuse, Danger in the church

I’m honestly not sure where to start with this. How do you fit your story into just words? I hope I can express how I felt and how I feel to anyone willing to read my story. I want to tell my entire story, because I am finding this very healing. Sorry for the length.…

#893 Don N. CS: 1,2,3,4,5

It’s 1973, I’m 15 years old, it’s mutual night, we’re playing basketball in the cultural hall. I’m thirsty so I walk out into the foyer to get a drink from the fountain and standing there is a young woman in my ward, a year or two older than me who normally didn’t say more than…

#891 Name Hidden CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

I was 14 when I first figured out how to masturbate. Before this, I was under the impression that it was not something women were physically capable to doing. With this new discovery, I finally had an outlet for my sexual frustration that came with puberty. I felt so guilty about it. My first temple…

#889 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

As a young child I was sexually abused by two male family members several times. They were 8 to 10 years older than me. I never told anyone, thinking it must be my fault and I must be horrible. I also had a father that was physically and mentally abusive. I really was very vulnerable…

#887 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

When I was a child about 9 or 10, I briefly viewed pornography out of curiosity before I knew it was a sin. When I had learned it was a sin in sacrament meeting sometime after, I was overcome with guilt and shame, as well as a terrifying fear of not making it to the…

#884 Brian F. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9

“You know the church frowns on homosexuality.” My bishopric interview at 14 years old (1984) and why it shouldn’t have happened. Life was okay at 14 years old in Bountiful, Utah. It was 1984, so a much different world. It was a world without internet and only 3 TV channels. If you wanted to learn…

#882 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8

I was sexually abused by a family member from the age of 6 to almost 15. When it all came to light, I was asked to see my Bishop (alone). My Bishop tried to be a psychologist and told me that I CHOSE to be abused when I was in the spirit world so it…