#420 Michael S. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7, Other: Disbelief in the “church”

I was a young adult during the time in which the internet and online porn were becoming popular. It seemed that every Sunday or General Conference was filled with endless warning of porn. I was probably an “expert” on porn before I had even had a chance to know what it really was. Before I…

#418 Sadie J. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9

I was molested at a very young age by a family friend. Then, I was molested again by another family friend from the time I was 11 to around 15 years old. He would touch me everywhere and spy on me when I changed or bathed. He stripped me down one night while I was…

#417 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7

I’ll never understand why my parents thought it was a good idea or allowed me to stay overnight with a 60 year old (approx.), single man who recently immigrated to the United States when I was about 7 or 8 years old, but they did. This man was someone my father was instrumental in bringing…

#416 Adam B. CS: 1,2,3,7, Other: Actual pain in my body went thinking about sexual shame.

Growing up I was taught in church that masturbation was the most vile and nasty thing and no one did it except really bad people, at least that is the impression I got. I had so much fear and shame around masturbation that I would never allow myself to masturbate but I did everything else…

#413 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,7,8

My first bishop interview about masturbation happened when I was 14 in 1984. I did not know what that was at the time. I had 3 more interviews about masturbation between the ages of 14-17 years old. I felt uncomfortable about his interest in that subject. It was creepy. He seemed so pleased to bring…

#410 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,5,6,7,8

I was sexualized when I was 14 by an adult female, “Helen”. She was in her mid-20s. At the same time I was also given drugs——not a soft drug, like marijuana, but “acid”, or LSD. (This is a long story and I won’t go into it here, only to say that this is what basically…

#408 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

My mother was inactive LDS growing up. My dad was of another faith. I didn’t go to church often, but would at times go play basketball with neighborhood friends who were LDS. At one of these shootarounds when I was thirteen, I was pulled into the bishop’s office without either of my parent’s consent or…

#407 Michael D. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8

I’ve written about a hundred pages worth of material trying to figure out what I want to say and get it down to something less than a thousand words. This is around two thousand. My difficulty in being succinct is perhaps evidence of the severity of the trauma and my need to talk about it.…