#865 Joseph P. CS: 1,2,7. Other: belief that I was somehow bad or wrong for going through the natural process of becoming an adult.

As a teenager, I was repeatedly interrogated by my bishop about masturbation. I lied and felt horrible about it. I thought there was something wrong with me. I thought I would be looked down on if anyone knew the truth. the guilt was always weighing down on me. I thought I was a horrible person…

#864 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7

When I was 14 I went to my bishop to confess to looking at pornography and masturbation. I remember the shame more than anything. My bishop at the time was my next door neighbor and father of one of my best friends. I remember confessing to him alone that I had looked at pornography, and…

#863 Randal C. CS: 1,2,3,4,7. Other: Unworthy

At the age of 9, I was introduced to a powerful man, by the Rev/ Billy Graham. This powerful, loving man was my Lord, Jesus Christ, and it instilled in me a change and a protection throughout my life. However, four years later, my dad divorced his alcoholic second wife, and my brothers moved back…

#862 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,9. Other: Belief that it was my fault when I was raped, so I never reported it

Prior to my first interview with the Bishop, I had no idea about sexual things. “Doing it” was something adults did. I was 11. But I wore sun dresses outside of church, and was developing early (B cup by 5th grade) and this was somehow all related to my unworthiness before god. I had to…

#861 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

I was 14 or 15 at the time and I remember my friends suddenly not attending church anymore. It all seemed to happen around the time that we were being asked if we masturbated by an adult male bishop. I remember some of the stories my friends were sharing about this and they certainly did…

#860 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

I was always shamed by The Church like everyone else growing up. I’ve tried writing my story now twice and every time I feel too much pain as I write to finish it. I’ll just say this: Stop damaging us. It’s too late for me and I’ll continue therapy to help heal my wounds. The…

#859 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

The devaluing of My worth. I was a girl around 3 to 5 or so. A tomboy. I loved doing rough and tumble things with the neighborhood boys and I loved camping. My brothers and my dad were loading up the truck to go camping. I was soooo excited to go. But…. I was told…

#858 Renee M. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7

At the age of 18 I finally told my mom and my bishop that my step father had sexually abused me, the good bishop did what our culture had taught him and told me to let sleeping dogs lie since it had been a few years and put me on the repentance process (yet again)…