#281 Name Hidden. CS: 1
I was extremely suicidal my freshman year. I left my house at 6am for seminary and got off the bus at 4pm followed by sports and lessons. As a 14…
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Legend for Consequences Suffered (CS):
- Inappropriate shame and guilt
- Childhood self-loathing
- Adulthood self-loathing
- Normalizing children to sexual questions by adult men. (Grooming)
- Sexual abuse. (Pedophilia)
- Impaired sexual relations after marriage.
- Years of recovery from childhood shaming. Often lasting decades.
- Suicide Ideation
- Attempted Suicide
- Suicide of a loved one or friend.
#280 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9. Other: lost friends
My worthiness interview story only scratches the surface of how the Mormon Church destroyed my life. The details of exactly how my life was destroyed I left out because the…
#279 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8. Other: Self harm/cutting
When I was 15, I was living in California and in a relationship with a non-LDS boy. One day, he forced himself on me. He was very manipulative and convinced…
#278 Carrie B. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8
I grew up in an abusive home. I was raped for the first time when I was 7. I spent decades trying to convince my “leaders” that it wasn’t my…
#277 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,8
Of my own experience, I wish to say that it is not remotely as appalling as many of the personal stories bravely posted on the website. I have experienced abuse…
#276 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3
The first time I ever masturbated was on my Mission at age 21. I knew I had to confess to my mission president, but I sat there in silence for…
#275 Name Hidden. CS: 1,4
This story is about my daughter and it only happened a couple of years ago. My 18 year old daughter decided she wanted to follow some of her sisters examples…
#274 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,8
My experience with interviews has been all over the map. It ranges from mildly intrusive to absolutely inappropriate. At one point the proceedings of a church disciplinary council made me…
#273 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
I was born into and grew up in a very strict Mormon family. My mom had this view of the world that the less you knew about sinful, harmful stuff,…
#272 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7
I started attending the LDS church when I was eleven years old right after my parent’s divorced. Growing up in the church I was given many lessons likening my sexual…
#271 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7
My story isn’t necessarily traumatic (I’ve read FAR worse on here), though it can vouch for the negative effects that private worthiness interviews and shame culture have on developing youth…
#270 Amanda W. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
I was in my teens when I started masturbating. My bishop at the time was very much interested in emphasizing how sinful masturbation was. He regularly visited my Young Women’s…
#269 Lauren S. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7. Other: Silenced about sexual abuse. Blamed for my own sexual abuse.
I was 11 when a cousin 4 years older than me began sexually abusing me. It went on every summer for 3 years, worsening each year as he viewed stronger…
#268 Duncan S. CS: 1,2,7,8. Other: Perpetuated addiction.
I’ve always been interested in love. My whole life has been spent loving love, and naturally that love, as a child, was placed in God. As I grew older, I…
#267 Name Withheld CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8
When I was a child, I considered suicide as an alternative route to admitting to a bishop a “sexual sin” I had committed a few years prior. I remember the…
#266 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,6,7,8,9
I am in the process of writing my story about the sexual issues and shaming that happened within the church. It’s really hard to do. I’ve been in therapy for…
#265 Jeanne A. CS: 1,2,3,4,6
I was a 17 year old good girl. Dating at Ricks college with a football player with 16 roaming hands. After months of dating and fighting him off I finally…
#264 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9
I didn’t know what masturbation was at 11 when I went in for my “are you ready for the priesthood?” interview with the bishop. Little did I know when I…
#263 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9
I’m one of the lucky ones who had only good men as bishops throughout my life and yet I still did not escape unscathed. I discovered masturbation by about age…
#262 Name Hidden. CS: 1
I had a boyfriend as a teenager that I “fooled around” with. I was told that in order to repent I would need to confess to my Bishop. My Bishop…