My first memory of worthiness interviews was being terrified at 7 when masturbation was explained to me in graphic detail but my parents insisted that I go ahead and be baptized. I was young, I felt powerless… This normalization made me an easy target I guess, it was years later that this normalization would have…
Roughly 12-14 years ago a sibling of mine came forward with a terrible story. He gathered the family together and informed us that when he was younger he had been groomed and repeatedly fondled and raped by a former bishop. He approximated that he had been about 10 -12 years old when it hard started.…
I grew up in the church and remember never properly being taught about sexuality until my teenage years. Even then it were very vague attempts. It always seemed as though people at church were embarrassed (or largely uninformed themselves) teaching about these things and even my parents never really taught me anything. The only occasion…
I was born into a dogmatically LDS home, where my father and mother lived to remain worthy according to the rituals and ideals of the church. It was equally important that we as their children did so. The first time I remember being taken in to discuss my sexuality with a bishop was when I…
I was about 15. I was sitting with the Stake President for a recommend to do baptisms for the dead. HE asked me if I had ever had sexual relations. I said no. He asked me if I was masturbating. I said no. I was mortified. He was my dad’s best friend! I could never…
Growing up I wholeheartedly believed the Mormon Church on everything. When I was in 8th grade I masturbated for the first time, I didn’t even know what it was. But I confessed to my father who was bishop at the time and so I didn’t take the sacrament for that week. I highly respected my…
My story is about mental health. The experiences I had as a young woman with depression and anxiety in the church were traumatizing and heartbreaking. There’s a history of mental disorders in my family history, including depression, bipolar, and anxiety. I’ve been going to therapy for a variety of reasons since I was about nine…
My daughters father molested her. CPS confirmed it, and the state of Utah refused to prosecute him because return missionaries don’t do that kind of thing. When a Church runs an entire state, they can make sure bad people get away with everything. He has also been charged with domestic violence in another state, which…
I was sexually assaulted and raped in a church bathroom by a friend. I told my bishop right away in his office. He recorded it, I believe. I was given a book on forgiveness, made to not take sacrament for a month to forgive him for what he did to me. My guardians were never…
I’ve been mormon all my life. I was a strong extremely Molly Mormon in a very Mormon family. Until I went and broke the rules by getting a boyfriend at age 15. We dated for a year and a half, things escalated and when they first started to I felt horrible. I went into the…