#978 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,8

I only ever knew about pornography and masturbation from the church deacons quorum meetings. Our teachers lectured us young (12) on how we shouldn’t lust and masturbate and do all these other things.  I now realize how inappropriate that was. I have feelings for men and I tried to hide it and would cry myself…

#977 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8

From the time I was a very young girl, I was being sexually abused by multiple members of my family. As is common for children in this situation, I was convinced that it was all my fault, the result of some error or fundamental flaw on my part. The shame was overwhelming, and so I…

#975 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,6

As a young woman I was frequently pulled into the Bishops office at random for “worthiness interviews”, even without my parents knowing these interviews were happening. I was a good girl and at that age didn’t have things to repent of but I often felt shame for even being pulled in like he was insinuating…

#974 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8

Growing up, sexually explicit questions became the norm from an early age. I remember vividly at the age of 11, during my initial Aaronic priesthood interview, being asked about masturbation and pornography. I didn’t really know what the bishop was talking about, but he proceeded to vividly describe both to me. He said that my…

#971 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10. Other: Shame on Me

1976 was when I turned 12 years old. That year my bishop had a priesthood interview with me so I could become a deacon. My bishop was a kind man, but asked me if I had troubles with masturbation? I did not understand the word, but figured I needed to say yes. I was that…

#969 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7

I remember as a youth being constantly reminded of the dangers of pornography and sexual promiscuity. These concepts were always taught to me in vague and even degrading ways. I came to be afraid of myself, and horrified by my own sexuality. I often went to the bishop’s office because I had seen girls in…

#966 Erin C. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9

How does one obtain perfection? I clung to the pamphlet “For the Strength of Youth”. I lived and died to follow the rules laid out before me. But I was weak. I gave in to the temptations of the flesh. It started when I was 12 and I would find myself in and out of…

#964 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9

* 1960’s-1970’s- (3 to 18 yrs. Old) I was trafficked as a child – sexually abused and tortured by members of Polygamist groups, as well as other perpetrators and pedophiles within the communities of Bluffdale, Riverton, and throughout the Salt Lake Valley. This child trafficking occurred in homes, church buildings, basements, school buildings and other…