#649 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

I grew up in Utah and went to a pediatrician named Glen C. Griffen who had authored numerous books about maturation and sexual development published by LDS publishers which I was given to read. Those books, and the writings of President Kimball, and other talks in General Conference (there was a particularly horrible one by…

#648 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8,9,10. Other: Mental Illness

It has taken a lot of thought and courage for me to even begin to share my experience. I have only ever shared the consequences I have suffered as a result of the church, but not the worthiness interviews themselves. Though I believe many people who are LDS are good people, my dad wasn’t one…

#647 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8,9

I was raped by a stake president’s son when I was 14 (in 1994). The bishop did not let my mother come into the interview she arranged (which she did because she thought I slept with someone — not bothering to know the details of my rape). Instead of suggesting I press charges or get…

#646 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7

My three sisters and I were abused by my mom’s Mormon best friends sons for many years. When the abuse was discovered, our mother shamed us into KNOWING that it was our fault. How does a 4 year old get blamed for a 12 year old playing doctor in the Mormon role of men and…

#645 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

I was born/ raised in the church, and growing up I took my religion very seriously. I was attending a Young Single Adult Ward, and I’d been carrying around tremendous guilt for years. As a kid, I was repeatedly molested by my older brother. My memory on when it first started and ended is hazy,…

#644 CS: Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

Self loathing is a good basis here. Starting adult life with the mindset that hating yourself is healthy and righteous messed me up. I’ve since learned that I am worth loving and that meeting with the old dude that gives me tremendous anxiety to talk about masturbating isn’t necessary to my happiness. I don’t need…

#643 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7

As a youth, there were very few times that I got free of the shame, guilt, and self loathing that accompanied worthiness interviews. Before my mission, I thought I cleared everything up, but my mission president would ask inapropriate and deeply probing questions that caused me to question if I really had confessed everything. I…

#642 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10

Hi Sam! I saw your Facebook feed months ago, and it intrigued me. As I was reading about your cause, my heart was so saddened, not only for the victims I read about, but it then dawned on me, my own children have been subjected to these interviews. I am an active member of our…

#640 Bart P. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

I discovered masturbation at age 5. I did not know it was a “sin” until my mother had caught me. Ever after she would try to catch me in the act. So I had internalized the shame from a very tender age. Shortly after my baptism at age 8 after I had masturbated I had…

#639 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8. Other: Attempted Self Mutilation

From when I was twelve onward, I was asked by my bishop in semi annual interviews sexual questions. He asked me, from when I was 12, if I engaged in petting or necking. I had to ask for clarification about what that meant. He asked me if I watched pornography. I had to ask for…