#653 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,9,10

When my brother Keith was in high school he had an interview with our local bishop, who was a cruel, condescending and judgmental person. Keith confessed to some sexual activity with a girl and the bishop shamed him, put him down and left him completely devastated. That night my father came home and Keith had…

#651 Christi J. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7. Other: Complex PTSD, Inexplicable Nightmares, Lack of Trust

Approximately 50 years ago, I was molested and raped as a young girl in a small Mormon farming community in SE Idaho. It has taken years for me to realize the impact that this has had on my life. The abuse took place over time by the area counselor to the Stake President. The covert…

#649 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

I grew up in Utah and went to a pediatrician named Glen C. Griffen who had authored numerous books about maturation and sexual development published by LDS publishers which I was given to read. Those books, and the writings of President Kimball, and other talks in General Conference (there was a particularly horrible one by…

#648 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8,9,10. Other: Mental Illness

It has taken a lot of thought and courage for me to even begin to share my experience. I have only ever shared the consequences I have suffered as a result of the church, but not the worthiness interviews themselves. Though I believe many people who are LDS are good people, my dad wasn’t one…

#647 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8,9

I was raped by a stake president’s son when I was 14 (in 1994). The bishop did not let my mother come into the interview she arranged (which she did because she thought I slept with someone — not bothering to know the details of my rape). Instead of suggesting I press charges or get…

#646 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7

My three sisters and I were abused by my mom’s Mormon best friends sons for many years. When the abuse was discovered, our mother shamed us into KNOWING that it was our fault. How does a 4 year old get blamed for a 12 year old playing doctor in the Mormon role of men and…

#645 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

I was born/ raised in the church, and growing up I took my religion very seriously. I was attending a Young Single Adult Ward, and I’d been carrying around tremendous guilt for years. As a kid, I was repeatedly molested by my older brother. My memory on when it first started and ended is hazy,…

#644 CS: Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

Self loathing is a good basis here. Starting adult life with the mindset that hating yourself is healthy and righteous messed me up. I’ve since learned that I am worth loving and that meeting with the old dude that gives me tremendous anxiety to talk about masturbating isn’t necessary to my happiness. I don’t need…

#643 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7

As a youth, there were very few times that I got free of the shame, guilt, and self loathing that accompanied worthiness interviews. Before my mission, I thought I cleared everything up, but my mission president would ask inapropriate and deeply probing questions that caused me to question if I really had confessed everything. I…