#455 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

It wasn’t the interviews so much as a combination of the interviews with the fire-and-brimstone chastity lessons. Masturbation was described as an incredibly selfish and shameful act. Then we got the For The Strength of Youth pamphlet which called sexual sins “next to murder”. Then came the interviews asking about masturbation and the copy of…

#454 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,8

My 15 year old son has been crippled with guilt and shame about masturbation. He has talked to our LDS bishop about it and feels worse afterward. My son is predisposed to depression and anxiety. His therapist thought he was experiencing a level of religious scrupulosity. I spoke to the bishop about this and asked…

#451 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8

My father was both a Bishop and a Stake President for almost my entire childhood. Both of my parents were very well known and respected in our small Mormon community. Nobody outside of our family knew the extreme psychological, emotional, physical, and sexual abuse that was happening behind our perfect facade. I wonder how many…

#450 George P. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

I felt uncomfortable just being in the presence of Bishop _____. Knowing what he was going to ask me made my heart race with dread. Every 6 months he would pull me into his office and shut the window-less door behind me. Then he would proceed to grill me. “When was the last time you…

#449 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,9

I have been blessed with having experienced two car accidents. The first one was the start of me leaving the church and the second was the catalyst for me returning. Why I mention them is I have subsequent memory problems, which is undoubtedly a blessing. I was raped at the age of 14. I had…

#448 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7

As a child I suffered years and years of sexual abuse. It started when I was barely older than a toddler and so, I didn’t even realize that what was happening was wrong until I was about to enter Young Women. Once I started attending YW I realized the full extent of what had happened…

#447 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,9,10

As a young child, I overheard whispered conversations between my mom and her younger sisters at family reunions. As soon as I or my grandparents drew nearby, the subject would change….Usually to something like “Oh, do you want a popsicle? I think we should get out popsicles for all the kids!” I do remember hearing…

#446 Brian A. CS: 1,2,3,7,8

After reading many of the stories here, I find myself fortunate, and I realize that it could have been so much worse. But the shame that I felt surrounding topics of sexuality were still potent. I was only 11 or 12 when I learned about the church’s stance on masturbation. I learned it in the…