#614 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6

I was 10 the first time my parents made me go confess masturbation to the bishop. Ten years old! They told me that sexual sin was 2nd only to murder, and my feelings of self-worth went right down the toilet. I felt doomed and terrified. Luckily my first bishop was very kind and gentle-mannered, and…

#613 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9

First off, thank you…thank you! Years of shame, guilt, self loathing and gender confusion because of what I endured. When it first began….I was called into the bishop’s office out of their concern I was “dangerous ” for other children to be around because I had just come out to my parents as being sexually…

#612 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

I was a 15-year-old cheerleader when I was called into the bishop’s office for making out with my boyfriend. The bishop, a 50-something real estate agent, asked me to go over every point of the encounter in fine detail more than once. What I was wearing, where/how my boyfriend touched me, how it felt, if…

#611 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,8

When I was in preschool, several kids and I used to play a game called “show me your bare bumb”. It was a secret game we played with each other and clearly a normal developmental thing . My own son has told me he and several preschool buddies showed each other their privates in which…

#610 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9

I was sixteen and excited to date. I dated a boy who wanted to get physically close, but I said no. He raped me repeatedly the day before we went to homecoming. I told my bishop who in turn asked if I liked any of it. He asked what I did to egg him on.…

#609 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

I am so scared to tell my story because of the backlash I could receive from family members who may read this so I have decided to share it to the public anonymously. When I was just 9 years old, my Mom caught me “exploring” myself. I can’t even call it what it is because…

#605 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

For years I was asked sexually explicit questions by grown men who held positions of power and authority over me. I was raised that way. I thought it was normal. Decades later I can now see the damage that was done to me. I do not want my children to be exposed to this. It…

#603 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8. Other: Self-mutilation ideation. The shame and guilt were so overwhelmingly, I wanted my genitalia removed so that I would never masturbate again.

Dread, shame and guilt at every annual worthiness interview from my teenage years beginning in the early 1980s into adulthood for masturbation. The interview didn’t even need to be particularly invasive because the Mormon socialization which shames this behavior is so predominate, the mere interview itself brings the heavy weight of that social condemnation to…

#602 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,9

I had just turned 16 years old. Raised in the church I was very sheltered and my mother never talked to me about sex. There was a 19 year old boy several doors down from my home that was obsessed with me. He would follow me around and would tell me that he prays every…

#601 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,7,8

When I was around 12 years old I was introduced to masturbation by a friend. At first I didn’t know it was wrong in the church’s eyes and continued to do it. After I read online the church’s stance on masturbation, I felt horrible. What I did was “second to murder”! I felt so much…