#780 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,8

I started masturbating when I was 12. I didn’t know what it was until I found the definition in a health book. It explained that masturbation was a natural thing that most people did, it was normal and even healthy. That definition SAVED ME. Later on I learned that it was a sin that needed…

#779 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9

Summary of the following story: I was groomed by my church leaders all growing up to be deceived by a pervert (another Bishop) and I thought all that happened to me was completely normal. I have decided to leave the church for any reason just pick one. I do know that I am not the…

#775 Ryan. CS: 1,2,3,7,8,9

I was born and raised in your standard LDS home. To give some background, I’d been through the standard public education sex-ed class and had been taught a little about sex and puberty by my mother when I was ten. I’d been taught nothing of masturbation but had already inadvertently discovered it, though I didn’t…

#774 E.M. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

I was the most innocent teenager growing up in the mission field in an orthodox family. I was best friends with the Bishop’s daughter who was boy crazy. I wasn’t, mostly because at that age the boys had not caught up to my height or emotional maturity. One night the bishop’s daughter wanted to sneak…

#770 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8. Other: Repeated self harm as part of guilt

My youth leader took a different route. One day in Deacon’s quorum he asked all of us “Do you know what jacking off is?” He sort of made a hand motion to kind of give us the idea. When no one really replied, he said, “Well, don’t do that”. Seems maybe harmless? But we got…

#765 Katy K. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

I grew up in the church. I vividly remember sitting through a Young Women’s lesson one Sunday when I was 15 or 16. The lesson was on chastity. Our well meaning leader explained to us how chastity is similar to touching rose petals. The more the petals are touched, the more wilted they become. I…

#764 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,8

I finally had the courage to confess my “sins.” I sat in the bishops office shaking, explaining that I had a messed up. He asked detailed, explicit questions that I felt uncomfortable answering. He lectured me on orgasm and erection. He looked at me accusingly like I was some kind of criminal, “where exactly did…

#762 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8

I have my own story of shame and acceptance of abuse instigated by inappropriate questions and shaming from a bishop when I was a teen but, today I’m sharing my adult son’s story. My son is unaware of Sam’s movement as any talk of religion triggers his depression and anxiety. He has dealt with severe…

#759 Mike T. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9

For my entire life, I was taught that obedience to counsel was of utmost importance. This teaching alone is dangerous. If the counsel reeks of guilt and shame, there is no reason it should be heeded, at all. Yet, this was the life I lived. That I was raised in. One where questions couldn’t be…

#758 Diane B. CS: 1,2,3,5,6,7. Other: PTSD

Was born and raised in the Mormon Church in Provo Utah. I have been questioned inappropriately by Bishops since age 8. When I was 12 years old, My Bishop’s name was _____. He would always start on our sessions with a hug and hold my hands. While holding my hands he asked questions about masturbating…