#629 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8. Other: Anxiety, Depression, Panic Attacks, Loss of faith

When I was 8 years old and receiving my worthiness interview for baptism, I remember feeling uncomfortable. I didn’t know my bishop well beyond singing songs to him in sacrament meeting and making candy posters for him in primary. I was taught that he was safe, good, loved me, and had my best interests at…

#628 Christine W. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10

I remember hitting myself at night when I came home from church in my early teens as I just couldn’t stay away from masturbation. I stopped for a year while living with my father. I then felt so guilty after a babysitting porn book relapse, that I told my father, who immediately had me into…

#627 Georgia S. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10

My husband is a retired police officer. There have been many times when he was investigating child abuse cases where bishops and other church leaders would not cooperate with the investigations. They stated this was a matter being handled within the church. They would not give any information. They were protecting the perpetrator, and the…

#623 Name Withheld. CS 1,2,3,4,7,8

I began masturbating without knowing what it was. When I realized I felt afraid and guilty, feeling I’d done the worst thing save murder. A few months later, at age 13, I told my bishop. He asked me to describe how I had been doing it, how often, and for how long. He also told…

#621 Jessalynn S. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9

The other day, I found myself reading through the journal entries I’d written both before and after I was formally disfellowshipped from the Church. I was disfellowshipped when I was 14 years old. Like many Mormon girls my age growing up on the Wasatch front, the LDS church was my whole life. My family went…

#620 Name Hidden. CS 1,2,3,6

I’ve slept on this, and woken up just livid about it, because I’ve had to relive it through discussions with people who won’t listen to victims. I’m livid at the deafness of the people who won’t listen because, as far as they know, their child hasn’t been affected. Yet. From the ages of 8 –…

#618 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,10

There’s nothing quite like trying to be the best child of God you can be – praying fervently, loving scripture study, always lending a hand to fellow brothers and sisters in need – and being told behind a closed door with your bishop that masturbation will damn you and keep you separated from God. Nothing…

#616 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

I was 13 years old when a boy told me that his bishop had told him to “not associate with someone like me” . My neighbor who was my age and my first crush told his bishop that we had French kissed and “engaged in petting”. The bishop told him to inform me that it…

#615 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,8,9

I was 14 and in an interview with the bishop, a trusted neighbor from up the street, when I first felt violated. I watched his eyes shift from my face to my breasts as he told me, “Never let any boys touch your breasts. Many of them will want to.” I instantly felt uncomfortable. Why…