#663 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

When I was seventeen, the stake executive secretary knocked on the door of my Sunday School class during the second hour. He said the Stake President would like to meet with me. Of course, my heart started to race and I began to sweat. I was nervous. The first thing that goes through your mind…

#661 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

A very close friend told me that after she’d read just a few of these stories, it threw her into weeks of depression. After nearly 50 years she still hadn’t healed from the sexual abuse she suffered as a young teen. She’d never shared her story before; other than with her husband. My heart broke…

#658 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

I have two stories. When I was preparing to serve a mission, I was asked insanely invasive questions by a well-meaning priesthood leader. I lied out of fear, but was dashed upon the rocks of detail. Asked about bestiality to necking (whatever the heck that is). Later, when choosing to marry my wife and going…

#657 Richard B. CS: 1,2,3,6,7. Other: Disproportionate fear of sexual diseases.

First, I must declare that I have OCD so fear of diseases and contamination has a psychological dimension, not just a religious one. I can’t blame the LDS church for all my problems. I was brought up in the LDS church in Wales by my mother. My father refused to be a member. One day…

#656 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,5,6,7

At 7/8 years old I was introduced to the sexual side of myself. I won’t tell that story, but as a young child, I only knew that what I was experiencing felt good. I wanted to recreate that feeling, so I started masturbating. I was taught in church, by leaders, that masturbating was a sin…

#651 Christi J. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7. Other: Complex PTSD, Inexplicable Nightmares, Lack of Trust

Approximately 50 years ago, I was molested and raped as a young girl in a small Mormon farming community in SE Idaho. It has taken years for me to realize the impact that this has had on my life. The abuse took place over time by the area counselor to the Stake President. The covert…

#650 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,6

My mission president’s monthly interviews with sister missionaries in my mission were emotionally abusive and left me spiritually debilitated and suspicious of all priesthood leadership and closed-door interviews. Our president tried to make it sound like he was just checking up on our worthiness, but he always wandered into vulgar territory with lewd, probing questions…

#648 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8,9,10. Other: Mental Illness

It has taken a lot of thought and courage for me to even begin to share my experience. I have only ever shared the consequences I have suffered as a result of the church, but not the worthiness interviews themselves. Though I believe many people who are LDS are good people, my dad wasn’t one…

#647 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8,9

I was raped by a stake president’s son when I was 14 (in 1994). The bishop did not let my mother come into the interview she arranged (which she did because she thought I slept with someone — not bothering to know the details of my rape). Instead of suggesting I press charges or get…

#646 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7

My three sisters and I were abused by my mom’s Mormon best friends sons for many years. When the abuse was discovered, our mother shamed us into KNOWING that it was our fault. How does a 4 year old get blamed for a 12 year old playing doctor in the Mormon role of men and…