#365 Name Hidden CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

When I was in high school I was sexually assaulted by a classmate. When this happened I was totally naive to anything sexual in nature, so obviously I didn’t quite understand what had happened to me or that what had happened was not a normal sexual experience. After some time of feeling guilt, I went…

#364 Mike S. CS: 1,2,6,7

I haven’t read even one of these stories.  I won’t. I can’t let myself read child abuse. I’m 58, BIC, active nearly my entire life. My experience is likely better than most as I remember it.  I wasn’t asked directly about masturbation until i was just a month shy of 16, my priest interview. I…

#362 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,4,6,8

I was a new missionary at the MTC. The MTC President groomed the sister missionaries by constantly praising and complementing us as if he had us on a pedestal. At the same time he was very controlling over our behavior. He wouldn’t allow us to talk much to the Elders and we couldn’t laugh. He…

#361 Sandy C. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7. Other: Feared God that he was always judging me because he spoke through the church leaders!!

I was a very good child always trying to please God and took everything to heart that church leaders said! The guilt and shame of the interviews still even though I had done nothing wrong carried into my adult years reflecting sex as gross and disgusting. I got married at age 25 (which was old…

#358 Steve H. CS: 1,2,3,6,7. Other: Loss of trust in the priesthood, the Spirits, and the Church.

When I was very young, my parents discovered I had been sexually abused by a female babysitter in our LDS ward.  When they reported this to their bishop, he advised them to not report the abuse to law enforcement because the family was a reactivation project and these allegations would hurt his efforts in bringing them back to…

#357 Rachel. CS: 1,2,3,6,7

I am so thankful that people are finally speaking out about this problem. And it is a problem, a big one. I became inactive in the church during my early teens, but due to a VERY inappropriate interview conducted by the bishop behind closed doors, I was driven to never return. Even after telling the…

#356 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7. Other: Fear/anxiety in interactions with bosses or authority figures

My bishop touched me inappropriately during a private, closed-door, one-one-one interview in his office at a church stake center in Provo, Utah while I was a teenager. He got a pass on his behavior and went on to ruin the lives of others. To this day he has not been held fully accountable. My bishop…

#355 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7. Other: Basically, I’ve become a pathological liar since I was trained in it as a small kid.

Although it isn’t quick or easy to deal with, I’ll make this story brief as if it were. So, read it in two minutes and don’t ever think about it again. But know that for me, it is my life, a daily hell placed there by the church and people who decide to do wrong…

#351 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

As a young boy, I only ever wanted to do what’s right, be honest, and grow in the church. Around the age of 12, I had my first experience with pornography. I was naive and innocent, and was curious about some webpage my friends had found. I felt miserable, knowing that what I had seen…

#350 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

I was a popular young woman, honor student and athlete in my high school with supportive and loving parents. In the summer before I turned 16, I attended a fireside about chastity in which masturbation was the focus. Since approximately the age of 14 I had engaged in some mild masturbation, completely normal and moderate…