#614 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6

I was 10 the first time my parents made me go confess masturbation to the bishop. Ten years old! They told me that sexual sin was 2nd only to murder, and my feelings of self-worth went right down the toilet. I felt doomed and terrified. Luckily my first bishop was very kind and gentle-mannered, and…

#612 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

I was a 15-year-old cheerleader when I was called into the bishop’s office for making out with my boyfriend. The bishop, a 50-something real estate agent, asked me to go over every point of the encounter in fine detail more than once. What I was wearing, where/how my boyfriend touched me, how it felt, if…

#609 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

I am so scared to tell my story because of the backlash I could receive from family members who may read this so I have decided to share it to the public anonymously. When I was just 9 years old, my Mom caught me “exploring” myself. I can’t even call it what it is because…

#606 Name Hidden. CS: 1,6. Other: Spouse lost testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ, and marriage was destroyed

I was an active divorced LDS member, in love with a man who had converted, been baptised and had his temple recommend in hand when he proposed marriage for all eternity to me. We were both mature, had both been married before. This was the culmination of years of study on his part, (he had…

#605 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

For years I was asked sexually explicit questions by grown men who held positions of power and authority over me. I was raised that way. I thought it was normal. Decades later I can now see the damage that was done to me. I do not want my children to be exposed to this. It…

#603 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8. Other: Self-mutilation ideation. The shame and guilt were so overwhelmingly, I wanted my genitalia removed so that I would never masturbate again.

Dread, shame and guilt at every annual worthiness interview from my teenage years beginning in the early 1980s into adulthood for masturbation. The interview didn’t even need to be particularly invasive because the Mormon socialization which shames this behavior is so predominate, the mere interview itself brings the heavy weight of that social condemnation to…

#600 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9

I have been a member for just over 23 years. I have never shared this story with anyone besides my counselor. I have always feared backlash from family or friends and even from the church. I share it here now because it is time. I want to heal and to move on. Sharing my story…

#599 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8. Other: C-PTSD, Manic Depression, Anorexia

From them telling us our bodies, the very thing that gives us life…is a sin. From telling us we are responsible for other people abusing us. We are children that are born into a storm. Some cannot escape. Some can. My cousin was a victim of of pedophilia by my uncle since the age of…