#421 Kylie S. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,8

I was fortunate to have the leaders that I did, they always treated me with respect. However, I did suffer from self-loathing and unnecessary shame due to the culture of normal sexual exploration being seen as a sin second to murder. I hated myself for years even though I was a pretty “pure” teenager, and…

#420 Michael S. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7, Other: Disbelief in the “church”

I was a young adult during the time in which the internet and online porn were becoming popular. It seemed that every Sunday or General Conference was filled with endless warning of porn. I was probably an “expert” on porn before I had even had a chance to know what it really was. Before I…

#418 Sadie J. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9

I was molested at a very young age by a family friend. Then, I was molested again by another family friend from the time I was 11 to around 15 years old. He would touch me everywhere and spy on me when I changed or bathed. He stripped me down one night while I was…

#417 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7

I’ll never understand why my parents thought it was a good idea or allowed me to stay overnight with a 60 year old (approx.), single man who recently immigrated to the United States when I was about 7 or 8 years old, but they did. This man was someone my father was instrumental in bringing…

#410 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,5,6,7,8

I was sexualized when I was 14 by an adult female, “Helen”. She was in her mid-20s. At the same time I was also given drugs——not a soft drug, like marijuana, but “acid”, or LSD. (This is a long story and I won’t go into it here, only to say that this is what basically…

#408 Name Withheld. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

My mother was inactive LDS growing up. My dad was of another faith. I didn’t go to church often, but would at times go play basketball with neighborhood friends who were LDS. At one of these shootarounds when I was thirteen, I was pulled into the bishop’s office without either of my parent’s consent or…

#407 Michael D. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8

I’ve written about a hundred pages worth of material trying to figure out what I want to say and get it down to something less than a thousand words. This is around two thousand. My difficulty in being succinct is perhaps evidence of the severity of the trauma and my need to talk about it.…

#404 Michelle. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

As a young 13 year old girl, this was a very uncomfortable, if not traumatizing situation for me speaking to an older man about my sexual “transgressions.” This, in combination with the church’s many lessons about chastity and comparing me to a chewed piece of gum for losing my virginity shattered me as a person.…