#793 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was asked if I masturbated before I knew what is was and before the thought had occurred to me. I was 13. It sounded bad, so I stammered out a “no.” I had to ask my friend who had just had the same question in her interview. As I grew more mature and ,…

#791 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was born into and raised in another church. I was baptized as an infant, received my first communion, went through catechism, and was confirmed as a member of that church when I was 15-years-old. Six months later I met a beautiful girl that was Mormon. She was not just beautiful in appearance; she was…

#785 Allred. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8. Other: In addition to my own story here, my sisters have endured similar abuse by church leadership – including being sexually assaulted by the bishop in President Monson’s ward where my family lived for almost 20 years. Too many of the men in my family have been taught that this is normal and acceptable behavior, and have perpetuated abuse, and guilt/blame toward us women in the family. I could go on with countless horror stories within my own family, but suffice it to say – the trauma has affected us since our family began, and still causes us struggles as a family today.

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 5. Sexual abuse, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, 8. Suicide Ideation, Consequence Stories2 Comments

I was 15 years old when my biological father raped and sodomized me over 130 times for a period which lasted nine long months. I had been kicked out of my home by my stepfather, and ignored by the mother who would rather please the priesthood holder in the home, than stand up for her…

#781 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, 8. Suicide Ideation, 9. Attempted Suicide, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was asked multiple times if I masturbated and then he explained how bad it is and the addictive nature of it. I denied it but felt guilty for years until I attempted to take my life 2 seperate times. Finally I admitted to my bishop that I masturbated and what he said didn’t make…

#779 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, 8. Suicide Ideation, 9. Attempted Suicide, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

Summary of the following story: I was groomed by my church leaders all growing up to be deceived by a pervert (another Bishop) and I thought all that happened to me was completely normal. I have decided to leave the church for any reason just pick one. I do know that I am not the…

#774 E.M. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was the most innocent teenager growing up in the mission field in an orthodox family. I was best friends with the Bishop’s daughter who was boy crazy. I wasn’t, mostly because at that age the boys had not caught up to my height or emotional maturity. One night the bishop’s daughter wanted to sneak…

#766 Taylor R. CS: 1,3,4,6

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was a sophomore attending BYU. I believe my Bishop was a good man with good intentions. He was merely following the inappropriate interview guidelines given to him. I was sexually assaulted multiple times in a span of just a few months by a fellow BYU dance team member. This happened in 2011/2012. After being…

#760 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,4,6,8

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 8. Suicide Ideation, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was 21 when this happened, so I wasn’t a child except in the sense that my extremely conservative parents kept me purposely “innocent” without teaching me about sex or my body. We didn’t have tv or the internet, so I was really shielded. I went to BYU and attended a field study in Mexico…

#759 Mike T. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, 8. Suicide Ideation, 9. Attempted Suicide, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

For my entire life, I was taught that obedience to counsel was of utmost importance. This teaching alone is dangerous. If the counsel reeks of guilt and shame, there is no reason it should be heeded, at all. Yet, this was the life I lived. That I was raised in. One where questions couldn’t be…