#1002 Sarah V. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8

I was baptized at 8, like all the other kids who were raised in the church did. When I was 9 I was raped by my brother over the span of almost a year. My parent’s had caught him in the act and instead of involving law enforcement they just sat us down and told…

#998 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9. Other: ecclesiastical coercion to do harm to my congregation

I am one of the many men who was repeatedly sexually shamed in interviews. This line of specific and graphic sexual questioning took place since I was 12 years old and lasted until after my mission. I was grilled about it explicitly by bishops, stake presidents, mission presidents, and young men’s leaders. Even now as…

#996 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9

I had been molested by one of my brothers friends for several years between 11 & 14. This boy would sneak into my bedroom at night when he thought I was asleep. We finally moved and I felt it was something I needed to talk to someone about it but didn’t feel comfortable talking to…

#992 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9

My uncle started molesting me when I was 6 years old. At my 8 year baptismal interview I “confessed” what my uncle was doing. My bishop told me he would make sure and “handle it”, and stressed the importance of my baptism and how it would “wash me clean again.” It continued for years…. When…

#986 Jeffrey. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8

I started masturbating when I was 9 years old, a few years later I was house sitting for a neighbor and watched pornography alone on their VHS tapes. I read the book “the worth of a soul” and thought that I was destined for outer darkness. In any Bishop’s interview I ever had as a…

#985 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7,8,9

I remember being called in for an interview with the bishop when I was about fourteen. He said it was an interview to lead the Teachers’ Quorum. He got to the question of the law of chastity and asked if I was keeping it. “Yes.” “Do you masturbate?” He asked the question as he stared…

#982 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7,8

I was 16 when I had pre-marital sex with my then high school girlfriend. In hindsight, we were kids with raging hormones and we both felt horrible about our actions. We both went to speak to my home-ward bishop about our mutual sin. We were upfront, honest, self-loathing and willing to do whatever it took…

#978 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,8

I only ever knew about pornography and masturbation from the church deacons quorum meetings. Our teachers lectured us young (12) on how we shouldn’t lust and masturbate and do all these other things.  I now realize how inappropriate that was. I have feelings for men and I tried to hide it and would cry myself…

#977 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7,8

From the time I was a very young girl, I was being sexually abused by multiple members of my family. As is common for children in this situation, I was convinced that it was all my fault, the result of some error or fundamental flaw on my part. The shame was overwhelming, and so I…