I’m honestly not sure where to start with this. How do you fit your story into just words? I hope I can express how I felt and how I feel to anyone willing to read my story. I want to tell my entire story, because I am finding this very healing. Sorry for the length.…
I had no idea that these were the questions being asked of CHILDREN. If I were still in the cult, I hate to say it, but I don’t know what my response would have been if I were trying desperately to be a “good” Mormon. Of course, I can only imagine that parents are being…
It’s 1973, I’m 15 years old, it’s mutual night, we’re playing basketball in the cultural hall. I’m thirsty so I walk out into the foyer to get a drink from the fountain and standing there is a young woman in my ward, a year or two older than me who normally didn’t say more than…
When I was 18, I entered my Mormon bishop’s office to confess that I had fornicated with my girlfriend. It had just happened couple days prior and I couldn’t handle the guilt because I believed that I had just committed the greatest sin next to murder. I was also scheduled to be advanced in the…
I was 14 when I first figured out how to masturbate. Before this, I was under the impression that it was not something women were physically capable to doing. With this new discovery, I finally had an outlet for my sexual frustration that came with puberty. I felt so guilty about it. My first temple…
I went to a bishop’s interview when I was 16 years old so that I could go do baptisms for the dead. The week prior, I had had a pretty heavy make-out session with a boy-friend, and some pretty heavy petting was involved. When I was asked by the bishop if I thought I was…
As a young child I was sexually abused by two male family members several times. They were 8 to 10 years older than me. I never told anyone, thinking it must be my fault and I must be horrible. I also had a father that was physically and mentally abusive. I really was very vulnerable…
I got my first boyfriend when I was 19 years old. I was a virgin and never even kissed anyone. I was strong in the church. He was a recent convert to the church and kind of struggling to understand everything. He was an amazing guy who did everything asked of him. He gave up…
When I was a child about 9 or 10, I briefly viewed pornography out of curiosity before I knew it was a sin. When I had learned it was a sin in sacrament meeting sometime after, I was overcome with guilt and shame, as well as a terrifying fear of not making it to the…
I dated a LDS member in high school. At age 16 he asked me to talk to his bishop. I was young and agreed. He asked me lots of questions about the guy i was dating and asked me to go into detail how intimate we were. We were sexually active. I was mortified. All…