I’ve been mormon all my life. I was a strong extremely Molly Mormon in a very Mormon family. Until I went and broke the rules by getting a boyfriend at age 15. We dated for a year and a half, things escalated and when they first started to I felt horrible. I went into the…
My story happened when I was 20 years old. I had not really attended church meetings from the time I turned 18 and moved away from home. One random Sunday while staying at my parent’s home, I attended church meetings in their ward. This was not normally something I would do, but I did it…
When I was twelve I began meeting with my bishop to seek forgiveness for masturbating. The guilt and shame I felt daily was crippling and I just wanted it to go away. As a young girl in the church, I was constantly reminded that my temptations were completely unnatural and that only men were supposed…
When I was 12 years old, I had sexual feelings from touching my vagina. I told my LDS Bishop about these feelings and he threatened to Excommunicate me from the Church if I didn’t stop. He and his wife were good friends of my parents. His attitudes only made me continue the behavior and to…
I grew up in Kirkland Washington and moved to Utah when I was 10 years old. I was not a member of the church. I had always had a lot of friends but the culture in Utah was different. I was friendly and would try to make friends but was told they already had a…
I have a few stories so I’ll keep them brief. A bit of background, I’m a 21 year old woman from a multi generational Mormon family on my mom’s side and second generation on my dad’s side. I’ve watched the church erode our family and extended family. I left when I was 19 and have…
I first stated masturbation at a young age. It was a secret I kept. I felt awkward about it when other boys talked about it as they learned about sex from their parents and I did not. I didn’t think much of it until I remember seeing a video with my Mormon peers which claimed…
When I was 15, I was called in for my tithing meeting by the 1st counselor of my ward. I was asked if I had participated in bestiality. I did not know what he was asking me. I had to ask a lot of peers and do a lot of research to figure it out.…
Approximately 11 years ago I was busy with work and school as well as dealing mentally with the loss of my mom to suicide a few years prior. I let my bishop know that I needed a blessing. I told him I was taking Benadryl to sleep a lot through a depression. The bishop at…
I am sharing my story in hopes that it helps others to know they are not alone in their feelings, in their experiences and in their trauma, but also to raise awareness to the reality of the unhealthy culture and environment of the church for our children. I would love to see change for future…