When I was 14 or 15 years old my mother caught me with pornography. It happens. Because of my LDS upbringing I was terrified and I thought my life was over. I expected my dad to come home and beat me till my bones broke everyday for the rest of my life. Most indiscretions were…
I felt like my mind and my body were never my own. I was property of the church. My mind, body, identity, worthiness, and authority were taken from me through coercion, threats, extreme social pressure, and ritualistic abuse. It’s been so damaging to me. I’m still trying to piece myself back together. It’s heartbreaking to…
Growing up in the LDS church I was always compared to my older sister, she was the perfect mormon girl and I was just me, so because of that I had a lot of meetings with my bishops growing up. Many of these meetings are hazy to me now (even though they were not that…
I am a Therapist-Survivor of ritualistic abuse and mind control, that involved at least two of my bishops as perpetrators, and two of my stake presidents. The document below is a document I wrote with the help and edits of a psychologist friend who has advocated and supported survivors for almost 4 decades. While my…
I was 12 years old when I started masturbating. I felt like the scum of the earth. I don’t know how to describe how much guilt and self loathing that I felt until the age of 27 (I’m 28 now). I really felt like I was the worst person in the world that I didn’t…
I was 15, in the early 2000’s in Riverton, Utah. I had been the Mia Maids president and extremely active in the LDS Church since my childhood. My rapist was more than double my age. I met him on “hotornot.com” I lied and said I was 18 to be on the website, but I told…
I was browsing my Facebook and to my dismay I saw a post from my daughter. We had never discussed this Protect LDS children issue, but there she was sharing a link about it and sharing her story. With horror and anticipation I read her post. She told about a member of the bishopic interviewing…
Please reach out to any teen mothers that have had to deal with the church, I’m positive there are more victims of other members. They condition these girls to feel like they are nothing and everything is their fault. Check at risk youth centers! They shut these girls up by sending them away!! Nov 17,…
I will share with you, reader, a story of a girl. This girl experienced a lifetime of sorrows from as young as three, maybe even younger, as memories still return to her in a haze. Her body and soul remembers everything, though her mind fights to remember, she must remember. She must remember to heal.…
I first learned about masturbation when I turned eleven, from my bishop, who happened to be my dad. He had a private talk with me in my bedroom one evening and in a very delicate way, he told me that some people massage their own privates for pleasure. After explaining what it was, he warned…