I remember having so much anxiety about meeting with the bishop that I would throw up before I met with the bishop. In my mission interview my stake president asked if I had sex with animals. I remember hating myself for years due to inappropriate questions. Later in college I was talking to my bishop about how my mother died and he asked me if I had looked at porn before. The bishop then made me go to the addict recovery program. This led to weight gain and eventually dropping out of school due to depression. I then met with a therapist who helped me believe in myself and accept my self again. I wish I could have the years of my youth again instead of shame and self hatred.