When I was in 5th or 6th grade, I had accidentally stumbled upon porn on the internet. I didn’t know what it was. I knew it was bad for me to be looking at though. It made me uncomfortable and I tried to forget about it.
Fast forward to a week or so later, my mom confronted me about her looking through the internet history and seeing that I had been on a porn website. I completely broke down and said sorry and said I would never look at that again. (Again I barely understood what it was) She was sobbing and acted like she caught me murdering someone.
She made me visit the bishop. I had to confess to him by myself In a small office that I had looked at porn. He acted like I was addicted and shamed me during the interview. He asked me if I had masturbated. I didn’t know what masturbation was. He explained that to me too.
I remember the meeting being about an hour long. Most of it I’ve blocked from my memories because they make me feel extremely embarrassed and violated.
I had to go visit him about it a couple of times after that. But I refused to go after a couple of times because I hated it. It made me hate myself for a long long time.