#1084 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7. Other: This leads to very abnormal interactions with people later in life. A mind filled with harmful doctrine that haunts me daily.

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 5. Sexual abuse, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

Utah has one of the highest youth suicide rates in the country. It is getting worse. When I was raised in the Mormon church, every week every bishop that I had, talked about Masturbation. When I hear the word Mormon the very first thought that I think about is masturbation.  The second thought is masturbation.…

#1083 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,8 Other: Self harm

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 8. Suicide Ideation, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was sexually abused twice as a child by a family member. First, at around 7 years old, and then again at 9 years old. That in itself was a difficult thing to overcome, and I was told by family that it wasn’t my fault, and that I was a victim. My abuser wore garments…

#1082 Name Withheld CS: 1,2,3,7,8

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, 8. Suicide Ideation, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was 5 years old when I discovered masturbation. I guess I could blame it on my babysitter using shampoo in my bubble bath which lead to a bad yeast infection. But my parents had no idea about it for years until right before my 8th birthday. My dad was my Branch President at the…

#1081 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,6,7

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was born into the LDS church. I attended faithfully with my family. Went to nursery, primary, and young women’s every Sunday except for the few Sundays we were out of town on vacation. Church was a major part in my life. I believed in its doctrine because it had been ingrained in me since…

#1080 Name Hidden CS: 1,2,3,7,8

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, 8. Suicide Ideation, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

Written 11 November 2017 So much anger, So much shame, Looking for someone Someone to blame. I thought for years. I thought it was me. That I was the wrong one. The bad one was me. Carrying the guilt. Carrying all the shame. That who I was Was bad. Was wrong. I was to blame.…

#1079 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

“Do you masturbate?” It was the first time I had heard the word, and it sounded like something bad, so I quickly said no. I was 14 years old, and He was the bishop. As a 14 year old I was dating a young man in the same ward. During the same set of interviews,…