I remember being asked in every interview if I was keeping the law of chastity. I had always answered ‘yes’ until I was 18. Me and my boyfriend at the time had engaged in some “inappropriate” behaviors, and I knew I had sinned. During my next interview I was asked if I kept the law of chastity and I obediently answered ‘no.’ I was then asked for more detail. I gave as little information as possible because I was so uncomfortable and didn’t feel like it was any of his business, other than if it was “all the way”. With each answer I gave he asked for more and more detail until I was basically describing the whole scene and how it exactly played out. I felt embarrassed, ashamed, and violated. Being a normal teenager, these interviews became more and more frequent, leading to me having panic attacks and wanting to kill myself anytime I was tempted to be physical with my boyfriend. I went through years of therapy. I still do not feel that I have a healthy relationship with sex because of my brainwashing.