My bishop at the time was a family member… I was 11 at the time… it was a Sunday afternoon we were at home we were a few members families for a dinner. Kids we were playing and as we were playing we lost the door keys. During the evening I had the duty to find that key. As the trash were not far from it, my mom told me to empty it and find it… long story short, at the bottom of that bag, I found a porn magazine. I was 11, preparing to receive my priesthood and I looked intrigued by that book that was the first time I saw one. My mom caught me… the next Sunday I was in interview with my bishop who was asking me how I felt, what did the book do to my penis… if I touch had touched my self, I was totally clueless about that kind of thing… I did not know about masturbation nor that it was possible to get pleasure out of my penis… I was disfellowshippped and could not take the sacrament… that punishment lasted about a year… after a year I was interviewed to receive my priesthood. My bishop asked me if i had learned what masturbation was. When I told him no he continued similar question like did I got other books, did I touch myself. Then he went on comparing porn to candies and that HE could provide some for me. Like a parent would watch how much candy a child eat, he would prefer to oversee what kind of porn and how much I was consuming… when I told him I did not really understand the purpose he told me to not overthink it and he told that I could retake the sacrament but the priesthood would have to wait.
We had several interviews of the same type where he would tempt me and offer me to become my dealer… just to see if I would say yes…
Being a member of my family these types of interviews were also informal… portrayed as a deviant to my family… told my mother she had to watch me… so during all my teen the door of my room was removed, I did have privacy… could not go alone anywhere because I would surely sin.