Like most teenagers, I masturbated. During a worthiness interview, I was asked if I had masturbated. I was honest and admitted that I had. I don’t remember the details of everything the bishop said, but remember him telling me I couldn’t take the sacrament for two weeks and that I needed to read the Miracle of Forgiveness and give him a full report about what I had learned. I was filled with so much shame when I read ( ch 6 pg 78) that masturbation often leads to mutual masturbation and then total homosexuality. I wondered when I’d start feeling the homosexual urges and felt such shame about myself. My sexual orientation never flipped to gay and it certainly did a real number on my self esteem.