I’ve written about a hundred pages worth of material trying to figure out what I want to say and get it down to something less than a thousand words. This is around two thousand. My difficulty in being succinct is perhaps evidence of the severity of the trauma and my need to talk about it.…
When I was 16, I was sure I was in love with my boyfriend. Evenings were spent cuddling watching tv. As often happens the line kept being crossed, just a little at a time and I soon found myself in the bishops office. He listened as I uncomfortably explained that I had gone “too far.”…
My mother taught me that it was wrong to touch my private parts. I was afraid to sin and was very careful not to ever touch myself, even as a young child. At some point I began to masturbate, as a young teen or perhaps sooner. I did not know what it was that I…
As a young 13 year old girl, this was a very uncomfortable, if not traumatizing situation for me speaking to an older man about my sexual “transgressions.” This, in combination with the church’s many lessons about chastity and comparing me to a chewed piece of gum for losing my virginity shattered me as a person.…
There was a time a little girl was happy, at least she tried to pretend she was, because she did not know what was going on.
I was sexually abused by an uncle when I was three. He made me touch his penis. We were in the same ward growing up and he was later called as a bishop when I was a teenager. I remember being so sad and confused that someone like him could be called. Why would priesthood…
When I was about 21 I was repenting for premarital sex to go on a mission. _______, who I guess is a leader in the Boy Scouts now, asked me what positions we used, if I climaxed and how many times, and asked me to describe oral sex. He wrote everything down and kept a…
I don’t know if this is a success story, but I’ll share it anyways. I sent an the email outlined on this protect lds children site to my bishop. He emailed me back and said he would honor my request, send it out to other leaders who might come in contact with my children, and…
I grew up being exposed to sexual activities and situations from my neighborhood peers, starting at a very young age. I always felt shame around things I had been exposed to or reluctantly participated in based on what I learned at church. As a youth, I regularly visited the bishop for worthiness interviews. I always…
I joined the church when I was 18. I had an interview with my Bishop and he asked me if I engaged in Bestiality. I was so offended by this question. It made me feel gross and I wondered if others looked at me the same way. Just to be questioned in that way filled…