#869 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,4,5,7,8

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 5. Sexual abuse, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, 8. Suicide Ideation, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

My father, Stan ______, held one on one “priesthood” interviews with his children when I was growing up. He set this up to feel much like a Bishop interview, and often compared the Bishop’s stewardship over the ward with Stan’s stewardship over his family. When I was 15, Stan began “Sex Ed” in which he…

#868 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

My children will not be interviewed by bishops because of what I faced as a teenager. When counseling about my “sins,” my bishop, a man who lived on the next street and was the same age as my dad, asked me a very specific sexual questions. These were things I wouldn’t/couldn’t discuss with my closest…

#866 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10. Other: Years of late night harassing phone calls on my family’s home phone. I always suspected it was one of the male abusers from my families ward. If anyone but me picked up the phone, they would hang up. If I picked up the phone the voice on the other side would say sexually explicit things also talking of incest, and made it clear they were masturbating on the phone.

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 10. Suicide of a loved one or friend, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 5. Sexual abuse, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, 8. Suicide Ideation, 9. Attempted Suicide, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was raised in a family with half a dozen siblings. Very close, very conservative. My parents were very “morally driven” and extremely uncomfortable with anything adult oriented or things they deemed inappropriate. Easiest examples being the censorship they used for the family TV Many channels were blocked, we weren’t allowed to watch mainstream shows…

#865 Joseph P. CS: 1,2,7. Other: belief that I was somehow bad or wrong for going through the natural process of becoming an adult.

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

As a teenager, I was repeatedly interrogated by my bishop about masturbation. I lied and felt horrible about it. I thought there was something wrong with me. I thought I would be looked down on if anyone knew the truth. the guilt was always weighing down on me. I thought I was a horrible person…

#864 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,7

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

When I was 14 I went to my bishop to confess to looking at pornography and masturbation. I remember the shame more than anything. My bishop at the time was my next door neighbor and father of one of my best friends. I remember confessing to him alone that I had looked at pornography, and…

#863 Randal C. CS: 1,2,3,4,7. Other: Unworthy

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

At the age of 9, I was introduced to a powerful man, by the Rev/ Billy Graham. This powerful, loving man was my Lord, Jesus Christ, and it instilled in me a change and a protection throughout my life. However, four years later, my dad divorced his alcoholic second wife, and my brothers moved back…

#862 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,9. Other: Belief that it was my fault when I was raped, so I never reported it

2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, 8. Suicide Ideation, 9. Attempted Suicide, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

Prior to my first interview with the Bishop, I had no idea about sexual things. “Doing it” was something adults did. I was 11. But I wore sun dresses outside of church, and was developing early (B cup by 5th grade) and this was somehow all related to my unworthiness before god. I had to…

#861 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,7

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence StoriesLeave a comment

I was 14 or 15 at the time and I remember my friends suddenly not attending church anymore. It all seemed to happen around the time that we were being asked if we masturbated by an adult male bishop. I remember some of the stories my friends were sharing about this and they certainly did…