I grew up in a very active LDS home. My father was my bishop twice when I was young. I loved all my bishops. However, whenever my birthday came up, I dreaded the interview. I had been sexually molested as a child by a neighborhood boy, so being alone with a man filled me with…
Writing a list is easier for me than delving into the heart breaking emotions. Here it is: Sexually assaulted in high school. Perpetrator goes on mission. Confesses his crime in MTC Continues mission with no consequences, writes me telling how he loves attending temple every week. Named me as victim in his confession. My bishop…
Long history of masturbation . Convert to church at 15. Parents not members . Aged 18 confessed to bishop of my problem. He said I need to ask you this … do you do it in front of a mirror? Do you feel anything entering you? Never understood why he asked those questions and I…
When I was a little girl, I was sexually abused by my older brothers and an older cousin. I was 3 when the abuse started. It happened almost daily until I was 9 years old. When my parents found out what happened, they took my brothers and I all to see our bishop. In an…
I grew up in the church. From a young age, I was taught the church’s “law of chastity” from church materials such as the pamphlet “For the Strength of Youth”. This pamphlet says, among other things, that sexual sins are more serious than any other sins except for murder and denying the Holy Ghost, that…
I’m honestly not sure where to start with this. How do you fit your story into just words? I hope I can express how I felt and how I feel to anyone willing to read my story. I want to tell my entire story, because I am finding this very healing. Sorry for the length.…
I had no idea that these were the questions being asked of CHILDREN. If I were still in the cult, I hate to say it, but I don’t know what my response would have been if I were trying desperately to be a “good” Mormon. Of course, I can only imagine that parents are being…
It’s 1973, I’m 15 years old, it’s mutual night, we’re playing basketball in the cultural hall. I’m thirsty so I walk out into the foyer to get a drink from the fountain and standing there is a young woman in my ward, a year or two older than me who normally didn’t say more than…
When I was 18, I entered my Mormon bishop’s office to confess that I had fornicated with my girlfriend. It had just happened couple days prior and I couldn’t handle the guilt because I believed that I had just committed the greatest sin next to murder. I was also scheduled to be advanced in the…
I was 14 when I first figured out how to masturbate. Before this, I was under the impression that it was not something women were physically capable to doing. With this new discovery, I finally had an outlet for my sexual frustration that came with puberty. I felt so guilty about it. My first temple…