When I was a little girl, I was sexually abused by my older brothers and an older cousin. I was 3 when the abuse started. It happened almost daily until I was 9 years old. When my parents found out what happened, they took my brothers and I all to see our bishop. In an…
I grew up in the church. From a young age, I was taught the church’s “law of chastity” from church materials such as the pamphlet “For the Strength of Youth”. This pamphlet says, among other things, that sexual sins are more serious than any other sins except for murder and denying the Holy Ghost, that…
I’m honestly not sure where to start with this. How do you fit your story into just words? I hope I can express how I felt and how I feel to anyone willing to read my story. I want to tell my entire story, because I am finding this very healing. Sorry for the length.…
I had no idea that these were the questions being asked of CHILDREN. If I were still in the cult, I hate to say it, but I don’t know what my response would have been if I were trying desperately to be a “good” Mormon. Of course, I can only imagine that parents are being…
It’s 1973, I’m 15 years old, it’s mutual night, we’re playing basketball in the cultural hall. I’m thirsty so I walk out into the foyer to get a drink from the fountain and standing there is a young woman in my ward, a year or two older than me who normally didn’t say more than…
When I was 18, I entered my Mormon bishop’s office to confess that I had fornicated with my girlfriend. It had just happened couple days prior and I couldn’t handle the guilt because I believed that I had just committed the greatest sin next to murder. I was also scheduled to be advanced in the…
I was 14 when I first figured out how to masturbate. Before this, I was under the impression that it was not something women were physically capable to doing. With this new discovery, I finally had an outlet for my sexual frustration that came with puberty. I felt so guilty about it. My first temple…
I went to a bishop’s interview when I was 16 years old so that I could go do baptisms for the dead. The week prior, I had had a pretty heavy make-out session with a boy-friend, and some pretty heavy petting was involved. When I was asked by the bishop if I thought I was…
As a young child I was sexually abused by two male family members several times. They were 8 to 10 years older than me. I never told anyone, thinking it must be my fault and I must be horrible. I also had a father that was physically and mentally abusive. I really was very vulnerable…
I got my first boyfriend when I was 19 years old. I was a virgin and never even kissed anyone. I was strong in the church. He was a recent convert to the church and kind of struggling to understand everything. He was an amazing guy who did everything asked of him. He gave up…