At 5 years of age, I was caught playing doctor with the neighbor girl. It was pretty innocent, up to that point I had no idea boys and girls were different. But, we got caught and that’s when the shaming began. I remember that night, my mom told me that “God was ashamed of me.”…
I was harmed by the church’s teachings regarding sexuality, including invasive interviews on sexual topics. I was a very well-behaved child. I didn’t do anything beyond occasional masturbation. I honestly believed I had committed a sin “next to murder.” I spent years sure I was going to hell. I discussed things with bishops that they…
I was sexually abused, starting at age 6. The day before my interview for baptism, my abuser told me that if I told the bishop, I would not be a part of my family for the eternities and would also not be able to be baptized. My baptism was a horrible experience for me, as…
I went in to see the bishop for my 14th birthday priesthood interview. He asked me if I was morally clean. I told him no. Then he asked me specifically if I had any issues with masturbation and I said yes. He asked how long and how frequent and suggested I tell my parents. Being…