My story is short and not nearly as bad as others.
I’ve suppressed these memories for a long time now. I don’t remember much detail. Just the shame that came from it. I am now 21 years old. I have been inactive for about 3 years now and found this through the ex mormon subreddit on reddit.
I remember in elementary school stumbling across porn on the family computer. I must have been 9 or 10 at the time. I didn’t know what it was, I just remember seeing naked people and videos. I knew what I was looking at was strange and it made me uncomfortable. I wasn’t nearly old enough or mature enough to understand what sex really even was.
My mom ended up finding the porn history on the computer and freaked out. She was crying and asked me why I was looking at that stuff and she told me I had to go into the bishops office and confess my sins to him. I was confused and terrified because this is the first time I have ever had to go into the bishops office for anything bad.
I remember being alone with him in his office. I had to describe what I saw on the videos and how it made me feel. I just remember being extremely uncomfortable explaining any of these things to him. My bishop taught me what I was looking at was porn and I needed to repent.
I was so embarrassed. I felt like from then on I couldn’t be alone with my bishop anymore. I avoided any meeting that I would have to have. I dreaded the once a year birthday check up meeting. The tithing one was okay because my mom and sister were there too.
Even though I had repented. I still felt so dirty thinking about how my bishop knows the extreme details.