My story happened when I was 20 years old. I had not really attended church meetings from the time I turned 18 and moved away from home. One random Sunday while staying at my parent’s home, I attended church meetings in their ward. This was not normally something I would do, but I did it out of respect for my parent’s and their beliefs. When sacrament meeting was over I exited the chapel and was immediately approached by the bishop. He asked me if I would come into his office and talk. There are a few things I learned growing up Mormon: 1) If the bishop tells you to do something, do it! 2) Don’t ever lie to the bishop
At the time I still felt this weird obligation to obey these things without question. I now know that was a form of brainwashing. So I entered the bishop’s office. To make things a little more awkward, the bishop was also my cousin. He started to question me in a general way. How are things? What are you up to these days? I told him I had recently moved back home after living in another province. He started asking me about my living arrangements when I was living away from home. I was truthful with him and told him I had been living with my then boyfriend. He asked me if I had a sexual relationship with him. Again I was honest and told him I did. This made me uncomfortable. Then he asked me if I had intercourse and/or oral sex with him….again I answered him honestly. When I thought it couldn’t possibly get worse, he wanted to know about any other sexual partners I had ever had. He wanted to know there names, the types of sex acts that were performed, how many times and if I had orgasms. At this point I felt so humiliated and violated! Remember, I didn’t voluntarily go to him, he asked if I would talk to him. After he was done questioning me, he asked me to pray with him. Everything felt so wrong. I will never forget his last words as long as I live. He said, “I’m glad to see you are on the road to repentance.”
It took me 20 years to finally tell my parents what went on that day behind that door! No human young or old should ever go through this!
If this is repentance, I don’t ever want to take part again. Ever.