Bishop asked me about touching myself inappropriately when I was 12. I didn’t realize this meant masturbating until later and that it was bad. I said no at the time but I had. I didn’t learn that it was bad until maybe a year later and soon after that I started using pornography. From that time on I was very reluctant to go to any priesthood interview because I was sinning and I felt guilty.
Because of this I developed an addiction to pornography accompanied by depression which lasted through my early twenties despite my efforts to quit. Through wise counsel of a Bishop I attended an addiction recovery class which made me face my problems instead of run away from them. I felt extreme guilt and shame during that time, but it brought me closer to God and made me a happier person when I didn’t view pornography our masturbate anymore.
I wish my leaders would have talked to me more clearly about sexual sin so I could (hopefully) have avoided a decade of guilt and depression.
Guilt isn’t bad if it leads you to turn closer to God. Satan wants to turn guilt into shame and discouragement and drive you away from God.