#364 Mike S. CS: 1,2,6,7

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence Stories

I haven’t read even one of these stories.  I won’t. I can’t let myself read child abuse. I’m 58, BIC, active nearly my entire life. My experience is likely better than most as I remember it.  I wasn’t asked directly about masturbation until i was just a month shy of 16, my priest interview. I…

#363 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,7,10

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 10. Suicide of a loved one or friend, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 5. Sexual abuse, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence Stories

I remember a dimly lit room where I was interviewed quickly for baptism at 8 years old. My parents were ‘inactive’ and the first I heard of what I was agreeing to was in that interview. I was told I was promising to never sin again. I had a fight with my sister that night…

#362 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,4,6,8

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 8. Suicide Ideation, Consequence Stories

I was a new missionary at the MTC. The MTC President groomed the sister missionaries by constantly praising and complementing us as if he had us on a pedestal. At the same time he was very controlling over our behavior. He wouldn’t allow us to talk much to the Elders and we couldn’t laugh. He…

#361 Sandy C. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7. Other: Feared God that he was always judging me because he spoke through the church leaders!!

1. Inappropriate shame and guilt, 2. Childhood self-loathing, 3. Adulthood self-loathing, 4. Grooming, 6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage, 7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming, Consequence Stories

I was a very good child always trying to please God and took everything to heart that church leaders said! The guilt and shame of the interviews still even though I had done nothing wrong carried into my adult years reflecting sex as gross and disgusting. I got married at age 25 (which was old…